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I don't think the end of all life is the solution, the problems and necessary problems of the world don't get solved by getting rid of the individuals who make them, they just get erased altogether with everything that anybody ever accomplished. This applies to the human by itself too, too many things will not get better or change in a substantially positive way because of our non-existence, and there are many interconnected events which might show how even a disappearance of someone like you could signify a whole catastrophe for everyone else.
We miss the mark whenever we allow ourselves to be overwhelmed by insubstantial things, we live in a present era which allows the mind to get affected like never before by inexistent events and an overwhelming degree of merely transitional instants of life. I do not believe or argue towards the path of self-destruction because of these things, although it is indeed the tastiest fruit of the tree of sin to embrace all that world of nihilism and negativity, therefore I can only say to you that, if it is still possible, reconsider a little bit more; there are causes to fight for, lifes to bring a life to, people who might change your whole world, moments of true dignity which signify all that was your life and everything which could come after that. A goal, a dream, a true ideal to whom one aspires.
I can say sorry for all of those who rushed you ever to decide which direction to take, we lack the capacity to explain with enough care how important it is to try and simply orient our lifes towards some degree of meaning and enjoyment because we have more belief in the need to safekeep time rather than the possibility of explanatory enough and meaningful to it's highest degree the types of communication existent between one another, excuse them for having made you felt like the choice of ending it was the only good one, find it in you to make peace with the world and see those lights of unimaginable wonders that are contained inside of it, because all the bad is still overweighted by the positive and meaningful things. If you can, ask around and discover more about what gives the spark to this flame, cultivate your patience yet more and be capable of exploring what you have yet to before making a final decision.
And, in the end, it really isn't a way which brings any prosperity at all, the human potential is something that will only keep escaping even the highest degrees of imagination possibles, to overcome and surmount the adversities is the story of the humankind, and to be capable of observing yourself as another one who can surpass these is beyond any degree of fairness, and something akin to a need because in you also the chances of a whole future resides. It isn't about being tired, because even when tired those who find a reason keep going, it isn't about being sad because that is an unavoidable state for all, it's about a substance only found after enough reasoning in a positive light. And, even if you right now could try to argue that it was killed, the mere fact that you are capable of holding thoughts in your head demonstrates still the capacity to reignite that soul too.
If it has come to this, if there is no other solution, make as many amends. But, you should always reconsider, whoever says that the hardest thing is to justify existence for someone who thinks is trying to deceive you out of the possibility of gaining the power not just to continue, but to put yourself together from the smallest scratch even when all things seem to be going wrong, because you can decide by yourself and for yourself what you wish to experience and bring to this world. I love you anon, and I wish for it to be a mere joke -w-