Confessions of a new member

Postby Angel In The Dark » Mon Jul 25, 2011 6:25 pm

*First of all this is just the story about how I realised I was into TUGs. Please do not feel obligated to read, I just feel the need to write this down and not to be the only one too know.

I'm a female.

Hi, I realised I was into TUGs a few months ago, but the more I think about it, the more I realised I've always been into tie up games. When I was a kid, I always tried to get my two younger brothers to play cops and robbers with me just so I could end up tied up. I didn't really admit to myself back than that I actually like getting tied up. Also if I was watching a movie or TV and at some point someone got tied up or kidnapped, I would always get existed and I would wonder what it felt like. Back than I thought there was something wrong with me because those where serious situations that could happen in real life that where horrible (I didn't know some people actually did it for fun). I also like ready books where the main character would get captured and tied. I really liked to imagine how he was tied and what it felt like. Again I thought something was wrong with me and I tried to forget about being tied up. Years went by and I didn't get tied up, but I still felt existed when I saw or read about someone being bound. But the important part in this story is what happens next...

In class we needed to read a book about a girl who was kidnapped. Now I thought there was going to be tie up scenes in all that, but I was really disappointed that there wasn't any. The book was "The face on the milk cartoon", I'm not going to explain the book, but you can look it up to see the description if you want. Since I wanted to read about real kidnappings, I looked it up on the web and found a site named experience project. I read all the stories on there and I felt so existed while read them. My leg would shake from excitement. I really wanted to be in their place and be tied up like they were. After reading all those stories, I wanted to read more, so I followed link after link after link and ended up here. After reading all those website I realised that there is nothing wrong about wanting to be tied up and playing tied up games. I realised that some people did it for fun with their wife/husband or boyfriend/girlfriend and that they did it in a safe environment. I read so many stories on this site, but I felt bad that I could encourage the authors of them. So I took all the courage I had and signed up about a week or two ago. I believe this was a big step for me, because I was really admitting that I was into all this stuff.

But now, I accept the fact that I'm into bondage and that there is nothing wrong with me. This website really helped me to understand that. I sometimes do self bondage and gag myself, but nothing to extreme. Although I fantasises about having a "More... intimate TUG" with someone, it surely won't happen for years and years to come because I'm still young and I don't know if I'm emotionally ready for the intimate part, but I still fantasize about having a TUG game.

Thank you for reading, I really felt the need to write this. Now I have to have the courage to press the "Submit" button...
Last edited by Angel In The Dark on Tue Aug 02, 2011 9:06 am, edited 3 times in total.
I'm sorry if my posts don't make any sense, I'm a horrible writter. Putting thoughts to words isn't my high point.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Jack Roper » Mon Jul 25, 2011 6:44 pm

That was a beautiful description and admisssion about your newfound desires.
TUGS are indeed fascinating-- when done right.
Like anything they can become extreme--and that's when you need to step back and evaluate what you're up to.
Thank you for sharing.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby xtc » Mon Jul 25, 2011 10:59 pm

Welcome to the light.
Boxer shorts are cool,
but little speedos rule!

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Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Angel In The Dark » Mon Jul 25, 2011 11:50 pm

Thanks for your support guys, it means alot :)
I'm sorry if my posts don't make any sense, I'm a horrible writter. Putting thoughts to words isn't my high point.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby sarobah » Tue Jul 26, 2011 12:55 am

Yes, thank you for sharing.
Although I’ve been into them for years, I still wonder occasionally about my own love of TUGs. This forum (and its older brother Canuck’s Stories of Tie-Up Games and cousin Bondage in Everyday Life) are a reassurance that you’re not alone and these feelings are not as oddball as you somethimes fear.
Words, like Nature, half reveal and half conceal the soul within.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Angel In The Dark » Tue Jul 26, 2011 11:12 am

SteveLuis wrote:Welcome.

There is a lot of people that are similiar minded to you indeed but admitting your kink to people in real life is a million times more difficult than on a forum. I myself have never been able to do so, but I'm hoping to work up the courage to ask my girlfriend one day if she'll tie me to the bed just for starters. The thing is, she'd probably do it because she cares about me and sometimes I think what's the big deal but then when I sit back and really think about it, it would probably seem very strange to someone who's not into bondage like the people on here are.


I know admitting that I'm into TUGs while be hard, but I'm still very young and I have a lot of time ahead of me. But I really hope you'll someday tell your girlfriend about your love of bondage. Who knows, maybe she's into it too but she doesn't know how to tell you. You never know :quirk:
I'm sorry if my posts don't make any sense, I'm a horrible writter. Putting thoughts to words isn't my high point.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby GentleDom » Tue Jul 26, 2011 11:22 am

I can understand completely, although i never understood why i did, i was always fascinated with TuGs and bondage, and although it took me doing some research and of course, experimenting myself, and with another one, i discovered how amazing and how wonderful it is. Age doesnt truly matter, within natural restrictions of course, but overrall welcome to the world of TuG's and Bondage, you can always chat to me, or many others who are here, about it, im sure we would be happy to help out, or explain it, or heck just strike up an interesting conversation :3
I am one with the rope! I am the politest Dom, I always ask whats your limit, and if your willing,
If you would like to break them ^.^ *bows* A Gentle Dom, one who still can do it quite well ;D
at your service, and you will be at mine ^.^

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Jason Toddman » Tue Jul 26, 2011 3:46 pm

Welcome to the site. I hope you'll always be happy here. :D
Dare to be different... and make a difference.
To boldly go where no one in their right mind has gone before...

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby ana-tie91 » Wed Jul 27, 2011 12:44 pm

hey dear angel and welcome to the board
my background is wonderfully like what u told about urself... like u i had interest in tug from my childhood, thought it's weird so didn't tell anyone about it, just 1 or 2 years ago found some tug story just accidentally, and by following the links and stories i stepped in a new world which i found out there are some people with same strange interests..well i'm still a newbie anyway and there are much more things about these tug stuffs that i need to learn.
hope u achieve what u like and have fun here
take care

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby vantran » Wed Jul 27, 2011 2:42 pm

Great post

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby rugas » Thu Jul 28, 2011 5:35 am

vantran wrote:Great post

indeed....
actually I don't write almost anything here... but when I read then I thought... "wow... what a post!"
perhaps it's nothing so special or anything... just how things goes for many of us, I think...
but, you can believe or not, -for a dumb as me who has still to accept how he is- it just helps to feel yourself less weird
thankx Angel... can I hug you? :)

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby markusthe1st » Thu Jul 28, 2011 11:58 am

It was strange in a way for me, because I first started with my aunt and cousins, and we played tie-up games for a few years before one of my cousins actually admitted that she liked it! I was shocked. "You mean you really do like it?" I asked her a few times, because for years, which is hard to believe, I had been tying her up not really ever wondering about our little secret or if it would be okay to ever tell anyone else about it.

It's all part of knowing who you really are, which is just really important. I can tell you from my personal experience that a young woman telling their boyfriend (or girlfriend; not sure of your preference) about it in an intimate sense will most likely result in a positive response - and some ropes wrapped around you! Most of my friends over the years, TUGs lovers and vanilla people, think a little tie-up play fun in the bedroom is alright. Just don't get yourself married to someone that thinks it's weird or sick; you don't have anything real in common with them. Just my 2 cents.
Walk the mile first... then have the fun!

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Angel In The Dark » Thu Jul 28, 2011 2:51 pm

rugas wrote:
vantran wrote:Great post

indeed....
actually I don't write almost anything here... but when I read then I thought... "wow... what a post!"
perhaps it's nothing so special or anything... just how things goes for many of us, I think...
but, you can believe or not, -for a dumb as me who has still to accept how he is- it just helps to feel yourself less weird
thankx Angel... can I hug you? :)


*hug* :)
I'm just really happy to know I'm not alone in this world who likes to be tied up.
I'm sorry if my posts don't make any sense, I'm a horrible writter. Putting thoughts to words isn't my high point.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Angel In The Dark » Thu Jul 28, 2011 3:00 pm

markusthe1st wrote:It was strange in a way for me, because I first started with my aunt and cousins, and we played tie-up games for a few years before one of my cousins actually admitted that she liked it! I was shocked. "You mean you really do like it?" I asked her a few times, because for years, which is hard to believe, I had been tying her up not really ever wondering about our little secret or if it would be okay to ever tell anyone else about it.

It's all part of knowing who you really are, which is just really important. I can tell you from my personal experience that a young woman telling their boyfriend (or girlfriend; not sure of your preference) about it in an intimate sense will most likely result in a positive response - and some ropes wrapped around you! Most of my friends over the years, TUGs lovers and vanilla people, think a little tie-up play fun in the bedroom is alright. Just don't get yourself married to someone that thinks it's weird or sick; you don't have anything real in common with them. Just my 2 cents.


I'm actually not too sure who I am, I'm questionning myself right now and trying to figure it all out. But you have me thinking about something else now... Well atleast I know I like TUGs and I'm problably going to marry someone who's into them too. Tie up games aren't weird, nor the people who do them, they're just least talked about so when people hear about them their first reaction is often: "Wow that's weird". And thanks for sharing your story :)
I'm sorry if my posts don't make any sense, I'm a horrible writter. Putting thoughts to words isn't my high point.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Jason Toddman » Thu Jul 28, 2011 3:18 pm

Angel In The Dark wrote:I'm just really happy to know I'm not alone in this world who likes to be tied up.

Whatever else you are or think you are (or are not), you most definitely are NOT alone in that regard!!! :D :D
I can certainly understand feeling unique myself; not about being tied up though (I had too many people - starting with my brother when I was 5 - wanting to tie me up to have any illusions on that score) but able wanting to be sat on (and mildly tortured) as well. As is, those are obviously much rarer tastes than liking to be tied up, but I thought I was a totally unique freak as a kid for wanting such a thing until I lived with my cousins for a while and as an adult learned of others who also had similar leanings.
But as for bondage... I think that's much more common than most people realize - whether the're into TUGs themselves or not.
Dare to be different... and make a difference.
To boldly go where no one in their right mind has gone before...

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Angel In The Dark » Thu Jul 28, 2011 7:40 pm

Jason Toddman wrote:
Angel In The Dark wrote:I'm just really happy to know I'm not alone in this world who likes to be tied up.

Whatever else you are or think you are (or are not), you most definitely are NOT alone in that regard!!! :D :D
I can certainly understand feeling unique myself; not about being tied up though (I had too many people - starting with my brother when I was 5 - wanting to tie me up to have any illusions on that score) but able wanting to be sat on (and mildly tortured) as well. As is, those are obviously much rarer tastes than liking to be tied up, but I thought I was a totally unique freak as a kid for wanting such a thing until I lived with my cousins for a while and as an adult learned of others who also had similar leanings.
But as for bondage... I think that's much more common than most people realize - whether the're into TUGs themselves or not.


TUGs seam weird to other people because they are not much talked about. There is so many people who like them. I'm sure wanting to be sat on and mildly tortured is not as rare as you think, I also wish to be a little tortured.
I'm sorry if my posts don't make any sense, I'm a horrible writter. Putting thoughts to words isn't my high point.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby tugsbd » Thu Jul 28, 2011 9:41 pm

Dear Angel,
I really enjoyed reading your posts. You have a lot in common with me and many other members of this forum. Thank you for sharing!
I love tying and being tied up! Struggling hard but unable to escape. Mouth filling gag. Helpless. Vulnerable.

Re: Confessions of a new member

Postby Discovery00 » Thu Aug 04, 2011 4:40 pm

There really is no reason to be concerned. There are plenty of people like us who just love the feeling of being tied up. I have had it since I was a kid.

I tell you.. laying face down, hand behind.... once I feel the rope tighten around my wrists... I drift off into a happy place, that keeps getting happier as more and more rope becomes tighter and tighter. :big: