## My not so comfortable to explain past - involves bondage

Post by Jay_JWLH » Tue Apr 01, 2008 11:28 pm

I will admit this isn't deliberately explicitly sexual, but it is the truth, and it is a bit sexual. So bare with me. I don't even know if everyone would be interested in reading this. I guess we shall see.
I was probably around the age of 16 or older, and I wasn't exactly at that point in my life when I actually managed to ejaculate for the first time. So the whole orgasm feeling was new to me at about that time. I guess I grew up rather slowly in the maturity/sexual sense, because I have certainly changed since then. Would you believe I hadn't even had a crush until the school year I was 16?
So one of those days, I actually started to enjoy sexual sensations. I bet most of you would be guessing that I was using my hand, or something else as a form of stimulation, but you would be wrong. I actually started to enjoy the sensation of tying my penis in a downward direction when sitting on a step stool. These are the sort of things that you do when you are young, and you just don't know why you are doing it. Of course I did that a couple of times until I experienced an orgasm for the first time. I don't have a clue why, but I suppose the resistance it provides eventually was able to get me off. Believe me, it is weird when stuff is coming out afterwards, but I don't think I am nearly the only one that would be as shocked as I was. Difference is though, I just feel like the only one that took such a step to reach that point, or did it in that way.
Slowly this converted from doing it with the help of a stool, over to using rope to use my legs as a way to hold it back. So simply I could just tie it in between my legs. To this day I still do this, and I certainly am into BDSM as well. My GF knows of this, and really, even she hasn't been able to get me off herself. She hasn't been given a lot of oppertunities so far though. But to be given permission to get off sometimes, I am only allowed to use my hand. Soooo close once... but never managed to reach it. I guess I am stuck with an awkward way of masturbating (note: by definition I shouldn't even be able to use this word, as I have found out). My fault for not learning to masturbate properly.

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Post by Jay_JWLH » Thu Apr 03, 2008 1:51 am

I really do share your concern DAK, even though it is all about me. Fact is, I have been doing it for so damn long that way, that it has become one of those things that you have learned to permanently do. When you learn of a way to successfully get yourself off, you don't very easily switch over to doing it another way no matter how good everyone claims it is. On top of that it isn't as if I haven't tried. I do enjoy the sensation of doing it by hand, but it will never get me to where I want to go. I will note that I don't make a lot of stimulation through this, so because masturbation is by using stimulation, I am not officially allowed to use the word.
So far it hasn't caused any real damage. I can still have sex, and it doesn't bend in any awkward directions at any time. I have been doing it for more than a year too, so I suppose my body managed to adapt itself. Maybe I can get away with it. I only managed to get my GF off once, so I think we have both learned that we are both hard to please.
I am not sure I would need Viagra. I think this could be more of a mental thing. I can't learn how to do it right by accident like I did the first time, so I don't have the opportunity to experience what it is like to do it that way.

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Post by smtape » Sat Apr 05, 2008 9:31 pm

he didnt invent it i actually have it