A few months ago i left the board for some very personal reasons. Im going to share a little bit of why.
I need help now basically
Im 6 months sober from a 4 year opiate addiction (prescribed). I stopped needing the pills years ago but kept faking pain to get more pills.
I was taking 20 vicodin at a time about 3 times a day, just for the constant high. Id use it to numb myself and mask any problems.
Thing is now that im sober and have new friends im still not happy. I have my girlfriend of 3 years, family, friends, a job, money...
But i still feel miserable. I feel like im worthless despite everything good. And these feelings make me want to use again. Not just the feelings but any negative events.
I feel life was better on pills and i know that cant be true. I don't want to slip but i feel i might.
What do i do
*edited to fix all the typos i made at 5 in the morning*