First off, welcome!
Second, I don't think it's strange to want to be tied up and left alone for a while. I sometimes like havingy captor present, but I also love being alone with my bondage. It's a good chance to really feel and appreciate how helpless you are. Not knowing if or when you'll be let out. Nothing to do but try and escape. When that fails, I imagine what will happen when my captor returns.
Plus it can often be cozy and a great chance to nap!
