Before I bore you with the details, I'm seeking a little advice, not about the bondage itself but the thoughts and feelings behind it; if that makes sense.
To put this the best way I can, in basic form, I understand there's three types, people who like bondage for the restriction only, people who only like the "pleasure" side and thoses who like both.
With myself, I like being tied up, (otherwise why would I be here lol) but the thing is, if I'm subjected to bondage only, without pleasure, I like to be bound for a long time, but if there's "Pleasure" involved, then as soon as I'm pleasured, I want to be untied immediately; which is really confusing me because I thought if I loved bondage then I'd enjoy the rest of the time being tied up.
Sorry if this seems somewhat, stupid, but it's having a big affect on me; myself and a girl I like, mainly because I'm in love with her but my self-diplicated bondage side of me keeps peering in aswell, which I think is causing her to think I'm only interested in that side of things and not the romance and relationship side of life.
My apologies for the rambling but if anyone has any thoughts on this I'd appreciate a response, good or bad,
thank you
Ravenkin