I'm absolutely sick of myself at the moment and as the title suggests I have a crush on my boss and it disgusts me. I am an 18 year old male virgin and have never had a girlfriend and my boss is 30 and female.
I don't know why I have a crush on her like I said I've never had a girlfriend and in general have never been good with girls. She's done a lot for me at work such as got me promoted and got me a full time job and is nice to me personally as well as often listens to what I say and values it as well as helping me out with a few things in my life. I think because I've never been good with girls I'm mistaking her caring for full on affection. I can't get the picture of her and I making out, out of my head and it just disgusts me she's over 10 years older than me. I keep imaging she gives me signs such as once touching my leg but it didn't mean anything. I don't know what to do anymore. Anyone gone through anything similar?