I think it's something many of us can relate to, we all have that and I feel struggle with it.

I always see myself as two sides of a same coin: Tossing it all times, unsure what side to pick or flip.
To make it make sense.. It's understandable. I keep hiding this interest, keeping my USB sticks safe.. using passwords, never able to discuss it.
It's hard being not yourself, at work I often see myself picture Bondage involved, with the sweet ladies I work with all the times.
Surely we've often joked: Want me tied in the freezer.. want my body covered in butter and rope!
Yes I joke and say yes! Little do they know the reality though..
It's odd you try to be you, but can't be you, at all.
