Many have gone through it mine just my own personal experience with it. Had it 6months and isnt getting any better and with medication and everything counselling doesnt work for me as i am just repeating myself every single timr which just annoys the hell out of me. At its worst now as my ex we were together many years yes i am 24 but were together a long time anyway she just got up and left like that and wants nothing to do with me so lost girlfriend and best friend in 1 so naturally I blame myself and feel as if I have lost a huge part of myself. Unable to just distract myself with friends because i have no friends no one likes me because i cant just shout out and make conversation easy with being shy so no one bothers with us. I go to work which i despise; have no conversation all day and then come home and just go to bed. Doing things I used to like I couldnt give a toss about anymore. Worst part of it all i have travelled alot this year but has not helped because I was meant to do all this with my ex so that has made everythinh worse and when I am asked who am i going with and say "me" it kills me as some think i confident abe to travel alone when in fact its because I have no one to ask.
Having this illness is damn right horrible especially when you have no one there for you and if i am honest I dont see it improving as nothing will fill that hole left in my heart. Been suggested online dating ha yeah so i have to pay to try and make friends because i cant make them the proper way. If i have to do that what does that say about me....hopeless, not worth knowing comes to mind and how could any woman fall in love with a failure such as me