Early members strea, Aqua mentions that the background and stream art have changed. 
Time to hand out the members wallpaper for March and April before she forgets.
She wanted to hand out both at the same time since she's been almost a month behind schedule with them.

Aqua wasn't feeling too well today, so she was sleeping until 10 minutes before the stream. Streaming is a little tiresome too.
Plan is to just speak about what she has in mind and end stream pretty quickly. She's been having stomach pains and feeling very unfocused.
Aqua suspects it might be due to stress, as she has been feeling stressed out a lot recently.


On to releasing the wallpapers. Flower of choice for March is tulip. The meanings of it are perfect love, rebirth and charity.
The flower for April is... hard to find, but when she does find it, it's cherry blossom, which represents a time of renewal and hope. She also mentions that cherry trees are in bloom already.
She quickly mentions that the allergies caused by all sorts of things blooming are a pain, but it is a very beautiful and comfy time of the year.

Quick reminder that the members only wallpapers are only intended for personal use, and that you may not use them for social media avatars.
Aqua then decides that she'll release the April wallpaper a bit later after all, in mid or late April.
She doesn't want to give too many choices at once, so that's why she decided to split the release after all instead of releasing both at the same time.

Time for chatting as soon as she remembers to add the warnings/rules and the mention of the April wallpaper being released later.
"I wanna" plays by accident because she has her channel as her home page.

Chat mentions that the resolution of the image is low. Aqua goes to check but she can't open the file. Then the file disappears.
Quick change of URL's and hoping that everything works. Chat reports that it works, and Aqua sends a message to Mane-chan asking about the resolution.

Chat: "Any Apex today?" Aqua: "No Apex today." She clarifies that the official customs start tomorrow. She's very nervous about it.
She has a lot of things to think about from the last custom session two days ago. They've already done a lot of reviewing of that.
For the most part, she wishes that she communicated better. The team was also very tired as a whole.

Aqua explains that the entire team is very busy, and they forcefully made time for the official scrims next week.
They all still have work to do in the afternoon despite making time, so it's pretty rough overall for them.

Aqua then moves on to address the chat. She starts by explaining that with as many viewers as she gets during the Apex streams, there are bound to be trolls in there.
Aqua hopes that we can all just ignore any mean or trolly comments as staff will be removing any really horrible ones. She hopes that we can just focus on the gameplay.
She doesn't mind people sending horrible comments to her that much, but she strongly hates people who send hate towards other people in her chat.
In summary, Aqua's wish is that the chat would be filled with so much support that all the troll comments will stop standing out and that viewers can simply ignore them.

Aqua will be recording the official scrims, and then mentions that there WILL be days when they won't be streaming due to various reasons, like exhaustion and other plans.
Aqua is really impressed about both Sui and Towa playing so much despite their circumstances, like Sui being so busy and Towa being under the weather recently.
Towa apparently took them into extra customs despite being a bit sick most of that time. Aqua also confirms that Sui is really that energetic all the time, even offline.

Aqua then despairs a little bit about the amount of work she has. She has been working on stuff a LOT, but she's still very far from being done with any of it.
She has taken on a new big thing as well that she can't talk about yet, and that's really taking a toll, but she'll do her best. When the stream ends, she'll get to work again.

Chat: "Have you been sleeping well?" Aqua: "I couldn't sleep yesterday. Not because of work anything, I just couldn't sleep."
She had some stomach issues then as well on top of some other things and she just couldn't calm down enough to fall asleep.
Chat recommends some new Yakult thing that apparently is very good for stomach issues, but Aqua is a bit sceptical of it. She's still willing to try it out and be careful about her health.
Something pretty terrible happened recently behind the scenes too that's completely unrelated to Apex, and that got her down mentally on top of everything else.
Aqua suspects that that might be when her health started to get worse again.

Chat reminds her that she mentioned something similar in March, and Aqua specifies that there have been a lot of separate events like that ever since December of last year one after the other.
It's hard on her, but she is willing to push through it and do her best.

Aqua mentions that even though she did all that talking about a year of revolution, it might be turning into a year of ups and downs instead.
She then talks about how mental health can be a rollercoaster for streamers due to various reasons like being self-conscious about your voice and way of speaking etc.
She says it's similar to bipolar disorder, and that a lot of streamers may actually have that condition to some extent.

Aqua then asks chat if they feel the same way to confirm if it's just a streamer issue. Chat says they feel the same way quite often.
She's very impressed by people who are able to control their own mental state to avoid the high highs and low lows.
Chat then suggests thinking of some sort of prize after doing stuff, and Aqua agrees that it's a good idea. She then mentions that she appreciates the time she can spend with her cat.

Aqua is convinced that if Mu-chan wasn't there for her, she would've never made it this far.
When she's really feeling down, she'll be wrapped up in bed with Mu-chan and talk to him about her issues. Mu-chan will always sit ther and listen.

Chat then suggests a hobby other than games, and Aqua agrees. Games are work for her now instead of just a hobby, and now she no longer has a dedicated hobby.
To cover for that, she's been watching anime, reading manga, and watching Netflix while working.
It kinda counts as a hobby, but she doesn't find it very exciting, so she's looking for suggestions for more exciting hobbies.

She's been watching a TON of stuff recently while writing signatures, and she decides to list out some of them.
Stuff she already finished:
- Terumae Romae (anime)
* Otaku ni Koi wa Muzukashii
* Durararara
 *these two she watched a little while ago so she removes them from the list to make room for only the most recent shows she's watched.
- Dress-up Darling
- Hamefura

Currently watching:
- YuruCamp (anime)
For YuruCamp, she watched a few episodes of it a long time ago, but she forgot most of it so she's watching it from the start again.
- Kuroko no Basket (anime) 
- Takaki-san

Aqua then talks about wanting to watch more Marvel movies and how she talked about doing watch-alongs on Twitch for those.
She's been holding off on watching Marvel movies this whole time so that she can do watch-alongs for them, even though she really wanted to watch more.
She tried looking for other movies to watch instead, like Harry Potter, but she couldn't find Harry Potter anywhere. It's not on Netflix yet.
She did watch the first Fantastic Beasts and thought it was really good.

If she has time, she's still very interested in doing more watch-alongs.
However, she then mentions the Marvel superfans who always recommend certain orders to watch the movies in any time anyone mentions being interested in Marvel.
She knows that she's apparently supposed to start Iron Man, and she did look it up a bit.
Her favorite Marvel character at the moment is Venom. She thinks he's cute, kind of like a heroine.

Chat asks which Spiderman movies Aqua has seen, and she says she watched Far From Home.
Quick interruption from Mu-chan screaming behind the door. Aqua thinks it's becauase he's lonely. He got fed before the stream too.
Aqua stands firm and doesn't open the door, because if she does open it, Mu-chan will never stop meowing.
She also suspects that the reason why Mu-chan would bite her ankles is that she wouldn't respond to him making noise when he was in the room.

Back to Marvel. Chat mentions Amazing Spiderman and says to watch it first. Aqua then explains that there are many different series of Spiderman movies.
When thinking about Far From Home again, she explains that it's an animated one, and then realizes it was actually Into the Spiderverse.
She has a hard time keeping up with all the differet movies, as evidenced by this confusion. She's unsure if there will ever be a future where she understands the MCU.
She is still interested in the MCU and she knows that if she gets far enough into it, she'll definitely enjoy it, kinda like what happened with the Eva movies.

Venom was a test of sorts to see if she would enjoy the movies, and she did enjoy that one.
She then makes a decision sort of to watch Iron Man next.
Aqua has also seen the first Batman movie. Chat then points out that the second one is when it gets good.
She then explains that she used to think Batman was Marvel as well, but realized later that he's DC, same as Superman.
She then compares Marvel and DC to Shonen Jump and Jump Magazine, saying they're about as different from each other.
Chat adds on by suggesting they're about as different as Nijisanji and hololive.

Aqua forgets what she was talking about for a bit, but then remembers there's a game she wants to play no matter what.
When she asked if she can play it, she was told the PS4 version would be okay, but the PC version would not be OK.
She's on the fence about it because she really wants to play the PC version. It's not a new game, just something she's super interested in personally.
She then reveals it's a city-building game. She really loves those types of games.

She mentions Civilization as an example of the game type, even though it's a bit different from city-building games. She used to play Civ a bit in the past.
She knows those types of games make all of your time melt away, but she finds them very fun.

One reason why she wants to play the PC version specifically is that she's way too used to using a mouse. She then kindly asks Splatoon 3 to please add mouse support.
Aqua then mentions that she just can't get used to the gyro controls. She always uses the sticks for everything, and that's just not enough in Splatoon.
She quickly mentions that she tried out controller in Apex too, but went with mouse/KB after all.

Chat asks for a Switch version Apex stream, but Aqua rejects it. She also mentions that there's a mobile version of Apex now too and she can't believe it.
Lots of technical talk about Apex settings, specifically FOV. After that, Aqua mentions that she gets asked about her Apex settings a lot.
She's been thinking about making a video showing her settings for a while now, but she hasn't done it becuase she thinks that her settings won't help people that much.
Her mouse sensitivity is mid-low with 800DPI. It's a little bit lower than usual for her since it's hard to do tracking with high sensitivity.

One more thing she wanted to talk about, but she forgot what it was.
Chat asks about singing and Aqua mentions she wanted to do a singing stream originally, but wasn't able to in the end.
She then talks about TikTok and how she was thinking of doing more stuff on there after Aqua-iro Palette went viral.
She wants to do more there and post more often, but everything has to be approved before posting so she can't really do that.

She then explains that while being in an agency as big as hololive opens a lot of doors and gives a lot of support in many ways,
it also comes with a lot of restrictions when it comes to stuff like this, which is something she finds a little tiresome.
Oftentimes the approvals will take a long time and a ton of stuff will be rejected or various reasons.
As a result, even though Aqua herself was motivated to post more, the agency will often put on the brakes.

Chat: "hololive summer is gone too..." Aqua: "Yeah, it is ww. I'd love to bring it back. Maybe I should make a plan to take it back by force."
Aqua explains that it's pretty much impossible though, as it would put their channels and livelihoods in jeopardy.
They have no choice but to obey YT in this regard since they won't be able to stream otherwise.

Chat: "You can get banned for being in a swimsuit?" Aqua: "Yes you can."
Aqua then explains that it's not really the swimsuits that are causing issues, but the amount of skin being shown that can triggers a ban.
Even if no actual skin is shown, but something skin-colored, it can still trigger a ban apparently. Cleavage is a no-go too.

Aqua then explains that her swimsuit is no good in that sense. Gaou-papa made it very "simple", aka it hides only what it really needs to.
Chat then suggests sports swimsuits for everyone, and Aqua asks if that's really what people want to see.

Aqua can't get excited about sports swimsuits, she would prefer bikinis.
She explains in great detail that the purpose of sports swimsuits is purely practical and that they aren't designed to be attractive.
She's aware that there are people around who are specifically really into sports swimsuits though, and suspects those people would be very happy.
Someone suggests a school swimsuit and Aqua rejects it immediately. In her mind it's even worse than bikinis in a way.
Trying to imagine Noel in a school swimsuit for example makes her feel weird. The more loli-ish members, like Shion or Gura for example, wearing them would be bad news too.

Life is hard, to the point that Aqua think it's the most difficult game in the world. She'd love to reincarnate once with the memories she has now and start over.
Someone mentions Mushoku Tensei, and Aqua says that all the reincarnation-type works are really great, just because she'd love to do that herself.

Chat: "What would you do after reincarnating?" Aqua: "That would depends a lot on where I'd reincarnate."
Aqua's choices would be either reincarnating as the child of her oshi (like in Oshi no Ko), or maybe in a different world.
If she were to reincarnate with nothing in a different world though, she would prefer not to. If she had something to start with, she wouldn't mind as much.
Long talk follows exploring the circumstances of Reincarnated as a Slime and Re:Zero.
Aqua then mentions that she had to stop watching Re:Zero because Rem's part of the story was too much for her.

Some more talking about reincarnations and time travel follow, and Aqua clarifies that she in fact still hasn't finished Re:Zero.
She looked at a summary of the series and realized that she can't deal with the story. Stories where someone in the world is completely forgotten are too traumatic for her.

End of the stream. Aqua asks for support in the official customs and mentions that she wants to do a singing stream some time soon too.