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most every time from LSD John Kennedy Now I believe that I know that you know
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what I like You watch me through my webcam and
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you listen to me through my mic beam signal straight into my brain from
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satellites above me in the sky I'm in your scope I'm in your sight but I don't
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mind Miss FBI is it your mind control or
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all the cryptic things you say it doesn't matter Either way I'm sitting on
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your whisper my face I'll send the whole wide world a
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place that can do their share But I don't care because I know you know what
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I watch
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my Heat
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Heat
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Cuz I know that you know what I like
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You watch me through my weapon and you listen to me through my night
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be into my bra from lights above me in
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the sky But I don't mind cuz I
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know what I do
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Heat Heat
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I'm all alone wasting my time [ __ ] face again rotting online connecting threads
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current events and from my bed begins my descent These rabbit holes I often find
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lead back to you most every time From LSD John Kennedy Now I believe that I
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know that you know what I like You watch me through my webcam and
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you listen to me through my mic beam signal straight into my brain from
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satellites above me in the sky I'm in your scope I'm in your sight but I don't
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mind miss FBI Is it your mind control or
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all the crazy things you say it doesn't matter either way I'm sitting on your
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cooling Whisper my friends I'll send the whole wide
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world into their chair But I don't care because I
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know what I like Heat
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Heat Heat Heat Heat
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But I know that you know what I like
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You watch me through my weapon and you listen to me through my
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life into my brain from lights above me in the sky But I don't
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mind cuz I know
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that
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you
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Yeah Heat
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I'm all
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alone Okay Hello Ah it's my mic
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on Sorry I haven't done this in a while Okay Hello everyone
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Hello Hello everyone It's me Elfen Elen SC
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Off recorded her cover Yeah I need to record my
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cover Anyways uh I am in a uh in a Holy
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[ __ ] chat is fast Uh I am in a currently in a Spider-Man Sorry for the mustache
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situation where I have to um address some things despite being absolutely
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ironic at all times I have to get serious serious So that's a CIA guy
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right there I'd like to start this um how do I start it it's just so
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much Um but I I want to say one thing which I'm sure you guys have noticed if you read the doc Uh oh no actually I
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should start out by saying that there's a doc written about me by my Discord mod
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moderator Discord moderator has written a document of 51 pages about about yours
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truly I don't want to sound stupid or weird so I'm trying to like phrase it properly
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Um uh there was a doc written about me and it basically is kind of an expose on
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on me on on on the things that I've done over the past year Um so I'm here to I'm
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here to address I'm here to address that And also I would like to say most of the
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TLDDRS so far have been right have been so [ __ ] disgustingly wrong The TLDDRs
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on Twitter that I'm seeing that it's so easy to disprove So normally it's like
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"Hey don't make a stream and don't stream [ __ ] and don't don't talk about it." But it's so easy to disprove all of
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this that I have to Okay Um I really have to because you guys already call it
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a nothing burger but I really want to hammer in the fact um the the the amount
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of retardation that happened behind the scenes um and what is happening right
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now So here I I made a bullet point I made bullet points Okay I made bullet points
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So let me see Um um um okay So so I will start off by
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saying I'm not denying that I talked to people I literally did talk to people I
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I talked to people that were in my Discord actually and we were really
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close friends And this was over the past full year None of the guys that I talked
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to were overlapping or at the same time None of them Literally [ __ ] none of
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them And can you believe this guy for telling people that I quote unquote
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eated people at the same time he has shown no proof no evidence nothing And
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people are just taking it in right there FBI right as much as I already knew that people on the internet just love
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flinging [ __ ] around it this just kind of proved to me um that people are
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really [ __ ] sometimes U but it's fine because a lot of people were smart and they were questioning what was
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happening Uh none of the people that I talked to were [ __ ] overlapping I
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need to hammer this point down None of them none of them were overlapping at
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all None of them eated me I pretty much there's proof by the way which I'll be
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providing within the stream Um there's proof of one of the guys literally
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admitting "Hey Elfin told me she doesn't want anything more Elfin told me she's
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not uh she doesn't want to take this anywhere further and I just went with it." I have screenshots of all this by
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the way I might be going too fast I don't know how to paste this I'm sorry I'm not really good with dramas Um
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but uh I I I I just Yeah Um so so essentially uh the the whole
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document was to basically prove that Elfin is a predator who groomed people
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at the same time by the way And these people have no sense of agency They just
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fell for the scoptus Um sorry if I sound aggressive
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I've just been all over the place these past two months It's been a wild ride
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It's been wild I was threatened with a lot of things So I'm just being a bit aggressive because it's finally out and
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I can finally just tell people So I'm just I just want to All the
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guys all quote unquote all the guys that I talked to were over a whole year by
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the way and most of them were months after And they weren't I wasn't playing
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with these people I was talking to them We got close like really close And we
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would play games every day We would talk in our Discord every day And you already well you already know
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how I am but I I'm not excusing my behaviors I'm just saying it's kind of
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wild to say that they were all squirted in together in one month I had this one
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month of Goonar Gooner session of all these guys together and I [ __ ] [ __ ]
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them together and and a Discord call It's insane to say that you know when they're when you have no proof And I
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have more proof than that guy I have way more proof of um of people pretty much
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being like "Why am I being called a victim?" and stuff Literally one of the guys um that I talked to myself about
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all of this because it was so [ __ ] Um he was like "Why am I being called a victim this is this document is so
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[ __ ] stupid." Um and uh yeah I I can show
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that too Uh where else um and oh I also want to clarify people calling this a Gumpie
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situation It really isn't I was never a GF YouTuber I never dated anyone I'm still not dating anyone
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Um none of that [ __ ] [ __ ] I don't have a fansley either I'm just [ __ ]
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and you know a gooner unfortunately Um moving on Um I think I
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made the point clear that none of them over overlapped So uh sorry it's a lot It's also really
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overwhelming Um h where else um okay I also want to
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hammer in the fact that everyone involved they were adults Half of these
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people were 25 plus And I'm not
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mentioning this age gap for any particular reason but to prove that I didn't manipulate anyone at the time of
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this stuff I was 19 years of age I was 19 And these guys some of them
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half of them were 25 plus including Bird himself Um calling me a predator is
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insane when you're much older than me much more experienced And I would also
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like to kind of put you guys in my shoes right you're you're you're you're
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working two jobs Um you find a hobby which is streaming and you're like "Holy [ __ ] this is so fun and I can stream and
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talk to people and and you start streaming with 30 viewers and you're
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enjoying it every day and then and then these people come from
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another YouTuber um Boo Bros They ended up on my stream
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somehow and right there and and one of them was
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Bird and he showered me with money and his excuse was I'm giving you money I'm
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donating money because you have to pay tuition and rent and stuff and I couldn't afford any of it Um so he
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helped me with money and I was like oh my god Also I I have to hammer also
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another fact is that I was very very very new to streaming I didn't know anything about Vtubing I didn't know
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anything about streaming Literally it's I had no idea So when the Idol Bros came
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in and the Boo Bros came in they told me everything They shaped my entire perspective on how Vtubing works And I
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didn't know before any of that Um and Bird was pretty much the pretty much
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like the closest one Um and he would tell me about Yuko He would tell me
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about stuff that happened um with Yuko And I was like I don't get why people
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are mad though cuz I wasn't aware what GF meant even I I I never knew anything
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Um and and yeah um they shaped my entire
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perspective on everything and it was it was like okay
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and if you're in my shoes if you're in my shoes and and you're
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getting showered with money when you can't afford anything and this guy is there for like emotional support and I
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will support you with whatever you need whatever you want you're kind of just inclined to be like holy [ __ ] thank
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Thank you I don't have family in real life I have zero friends in real life I
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was working two jobs I was exhausted So when I got told "It's okay We'll help
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you We'll support you no matter what." It was kind of [ __ ] crazy for
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me at least I was losing my marbles at that Um but yeah But yeah Um
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uh uh okay Next next next thing Um
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uh uh where's the next thing uh
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yeah Okay Another thing I would like to say is the wording on the document is
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very very very obviously not only cherrypicked it's also like they chose
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words on purpose Okay such as calling the people that I talk
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to my quoteunquote viewers when I would talk to them every day in the server Uh
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by the way if majority of you people don't know I was always online on my Discord all the time All the time I was
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constantly in the voice chats the whole time I couldn't I can't be in my room
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alone Uh because I tend to get hallucinations I tend to do a lot of
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[ __ ] I regret when I'm alone and I and I get really paranoid So I have to be in voice chat at all times So I was in my
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Discord server's voice chat all the time A lot of people saw it as well and they knew I would always be there Um and all
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the people that I talked to I genuinely took them as friends They were my friends that I
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would talk to every day Every day Like it was insane They're calling them my
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fans and my viewers And I've like targeted these men who are first of all
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all of them are older than me All of them by a couple years by a lot but they're all older than me Um and you're
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saying these viewers got harassed and sexually assaulted by Elfen
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altogether Um yeah
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Um okay Uh why don't you have someone in real life uh I don't know I don't I don't
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like again as I said people already know this so many [ __ ] times I have to
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hammer this again I don't talk to people in real life I don't have anyone in real life Um um okay
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Okay Um yeah but most of people that I talked to I interacted with on a daily basis They were my friends At least I
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took them as that Um and yeah next
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um they they specified that I've dated these people or whatever I didn't eat a
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single person Not one No commitment Never I even specified to many many many
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many of these people that I'm not into commitment or that kind of stuff Um and
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I made sure I made sure uh to to to hammer that in Okay Uh to to most of
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these guys I have proof I will sh Oh I'm sorry if I'm a bit overwhelmed and I didn't want to have to
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do it like this I prefer to keep things quiet um and solve it personally Um
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again this is another hypocritical thing from Bird himself is he said that he confronted to me about all of this and
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that he has um talked to me about all of this He never has Not once he reached
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out to me He pretended to be normal and he was scheming behind my back He was
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talking to all of my friends He was poisoning my community He pretty much
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ruined my Discord for me Um I would always be there on the Discord and these
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guys like he started DMing people one by one all of my friends about my personal
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[ __ ] instead of coming to me He never came to me even once So
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yeah Yeah Okay Uh okay Moving on
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Moving on Oh I would also like to put this as well It is in the document Um you can
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see it I'll show it later But Bird confesses to having pictures of me that
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I sent when drunk Um explicit pictures of me that I sent when I was drunk as
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[ __ ] Um and and I told him to delete them the next morning when I was sober
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and he chose not to but he lied to me saying that he did And I didn't know I
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didn't know this until I saw it in the document So it was insane
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that I don't know I It's insane Okay
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I He He He saved them for future evidence which is what I can't believe
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that It It was kind of insane It's kind of insane
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Um again I would also like to say he went around to my friends in my friend
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group and said "This is all for this is all a morally
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um obligatory thing to do He he he's morally obligate obligated to go and
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tell people about my stuff I will also say he says a lot about not doxing me in
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his document and he says that he never wanted to dox me but he traded pictures
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of my face to people so he lied about
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that Um he also showed people chat with my name in it because he knew all of
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that stuff back when I used to talk to him in April
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Um yeah there's a there's a [ __ ] lot Um okay Okay Okay
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Uh yeah he was morally obligated to keep explicit pictures Anyways anyways anyways
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Um next next um yeah okay he never confronted it to
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me Uh okay I will also his moral obligations I would like to also talk about is he was morally obligated to
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talk about my personal instances and relationships that I've had in the past to other people many other people many
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many people that weren't ever involved in my situation but me never came to me at le
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um if I That's a CIA guy right there I would have understood going this far and
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writing an entire document about someone If he talked to me and I was like "Yeah [ __ ] you you [ __ ] cuck." If I said
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that then then I understand making a dog I understand But you never came to me
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Not even once And you're [ __ ] lying to people
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that you confronted to me like ever And what the
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[ __ ] um by the way for people saying no proof I will share screenshots of all of
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this I will show you of all of this Um okay
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Next Next Uh next Um
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uh okay Also a lot of people saying that the the guys that I talked to gave me uh
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like donated to me money None of them did Just Bird did Um only Bird donated
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any money at all Um none of the other guys not even one
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donated to me at [ __ ] all I also need to tell you guys this Um yeah
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So yeah that that was being thrown around a lot like "Oh I manipulated these guys to give me money." No bro I
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just did it cuz I was [ __ ] [ __ ] I just did it cuz I'm a [ __ ] I I just Yeah I trusted some people I I thought
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they're trustworthy and we're friends and we're close friends and Yeah
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So
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yeah also um apparently what people got out from the document was that all of
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these men overlapped but he has shown exactly zero proof about that Exactly
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zero proof about any of that Um okay moving
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on God there's a lot Sorry I'm sorry for the people that didn't want to be
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involved in the drama cuz this is kind of stupid I'm sorry
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Um Um H
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That's a CIA guy right there FBI right
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also um one more thing is Bird kind of went around to my friends um and told
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people that when he saw me in real life
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he couldn't see my self harm scars and that I lied about selfharming I just thought that was kind
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of really [ __ ] to tell people at all And
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it was FBI right it was kind of crazy um to to to to see that that that is that
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is an adult man saying that he didn't see a person's [ __ ] self harm scars
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Um I'm What what
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it's This wasn't even in the dock It doesn't matter He went around telling
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[ __ ] everyone All of my friends Oh wait Actually I should just start showing proof before I'm saying [ __ ]
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It's better to have proof anyways Um okay Time to just put in my stuff Um
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uh let's start off with Isn't that a simple misunderstanding no
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he he basically went to people and started saying that he couldn't find myself harm scars and that I'm a liar
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and I've always been a liar So So yeah Um I just wanted to put that
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out there too just to like show you the character instead um instead of just him
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basically saying that oh yeah I manipulated and lied and all that stuff
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Um let's start off with this screenshot cuz I think it's very relevant to the situation Um
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here Um oh that's my OBS Um
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h let's see Let's see Let's see Let's see Let's see Ah there we go There we go
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This is um this is a screenshot of uh saying something kind of really
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[ __ ] He shouldn't have said this probably I I don't know But I guess it's
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uh I guess it's uh important to to show you
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guys So that's a CIA guy right there I'm sorry
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if it's kind of confusing but here's um here's a screenshot of him saying she'll
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die and I'll never get my satisfaction That would be the third time that I've held off my own satisfaction because I
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have I had to be the responsible one It's annoying especially since I'm uh proposing um um since what I'm proposing
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is already a nisty What he's talking about is uploading the doc and whatever Other people have said that uh the fact
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that I'm actively trying to prevent her suicide and leave her with something is an extreme kindness You get that right
28:46
when when when you were upset I was the one proposing this same reasonable course of action and never changed my
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approach to the main points It's just everyone else [ __ ] me over and now
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this is one of the people u him saying in the history of her doing all this [ __ ] was there never really a massive
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turning point until there is now You never had the chance to change things in your favor but you do now There's a
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difference I guess between literally every single other instance Um you should uh use everything that happened
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and all this info to your advantage instead of throwing it away Make the best of this And the bird saying advantage implies there's something to
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be gained Lol You'd still life that stay her friend for what to watch her slowly kill herself anyways I was committed to
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that before of watching her slowly kill herself with her bad habits but obviously hard to stand by that By that
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now given everything So
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that's kind of the tip of the iceberg of how he was talking about me and how he
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would um talk about me basically
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Um okay
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Uh okay Moving on There's
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Okay here's one of them saying here's one Here's a I think
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relevant as well Hey that's a CIA guy right there FBI right thank you Danator
30:19
Thank you so much for praying for me I really appreciate it Um Zaga says "Don't care as in you could care less about
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where she's at mentally or don't care if you don't care enough to continue telling people Don't care how she ends
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up." So the first one yeah more or less I have such an urge to stir [ __ ] but I guess I can't even do that now that
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she's not around This is when I became inactive pretty much So a lot of these are with Sako Uh to clarify Bird was
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very open with Sako He was pretty much um I don't know he was just spilling his
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emotions everywhere Um I have all of the chat logs So
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um but yeah um I will also say one more thing is
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that Sako was technically playing both sides He went to Bird He would talk
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about [ __ ] with Bird and then he would come to come to me and be like "Yeah he's batshit crazy He's trying to make a
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document." Um and I just want him to like stop So he was kind of helping me
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out He was sending me screenshots about what Bird was saying and all the crazy [ __ ] that he was talking about So that's
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kind of that's kind of what happened Um also I would also like to say if I
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manipulated these guys and if I if they all hate me Saku wouldn't be helping me
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Um all the other people that I talked to wouldn't be on good terms with me either
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Um that's kind of a big point that Bird was trying to [ __ ] make in the dock Like they all hate me and they stood
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against me and they they hate Elfin and also blah blah blah
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And yeah so anyways next
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uh uh next x next um
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Sorry if I'm taking a while I'm adjusting my thoughts Okay Okay Sorry I also would
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like to mention this I was going to do it at the end but I I think I need to tell this now This has been going on for
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the past two months now I think it's been around two months I I would like to think I've been inactive because I've
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been pretty much just Yeah I was told that I'm going to get doxed I was told
32:45
my pictures are flying around I was told bird is making this big document on me to ruin my career I was told so many
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things and it made me so paranoid Yeah How long until he did
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saco you don't know the lore Sako did a lot of [ __ ] [ __ ] and I'm kind of mad
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at him but I can't deny that he's helped me a couple times But yeah
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um it was a lot to take in all the [ __ ]
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that was happening I just wanted a [ __ ] stream but I couldn't cuz the [ __ ] was happening in the background
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Right there FBI right
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okay Okay Uh
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uh
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That's a CIA guy right there FBI right
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sorry I'm trying to find all the right screenshots to
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show Okay here's here's one of the This is kind of just pure kind of malice I
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think Um uh um um it's Okay let me read
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this Okay Um okay No matter how Sako saying "No
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matter how you look at it releasing a dog will make you look like you're the better one Making our self-destruct
34:39
would be infinitely more satisfying wouldn't it?" And the bird saying "From my perspective it would make me look like the reasonable one." I'm telling
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the community at large of her behavior in a journalistic objective way which is insanely false because he cherrysicks a
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lot of things in the dock He doesn't he doesn't [ __ ] I don't know There's
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just a lot of cherrypicking of the screenshots Um and the phrasing is kind of absurd as well No dogs just facts Um
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and not directly telling them how they should feel or behave They should not uh they could not care they could stay but
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at least they they do uh that fully knowing Um and she cares about what
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people think She will explode nothing uh can ever make her feel safe or secure
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So so yeah that's uh that's a thing as well that
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um here this is uh another this is another one of the same way Overall it
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doesn't matter what I do she'll ruin her own life eventually Me taking the moral high ground however cannot reflect
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poorly on me But we'll see how the write up looks on my end That's a CIA guy right there FBI right um Okay And let's
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see There's
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um Okay Now I think I should go to the dock pretty because hey it's right there
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Um Uh
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Okay Okay Let's talk about the dock because I think I think we're I think
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we're at the point where I could discuss the doc and [ __ ] It's a lot about um it's a lot about me talking to people Um
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getting very close to them trusting them Um it it was uh
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yeah it was a lot of a lot of um a lot of it Again if we scratch all of that
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right scratch all of what Bird said Scratch all of the um all of the weird
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[ __ ] that I just showed you guys Scratch all of that I was just putting that out there before I forget Here's the dock
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here It's about me It's about me talking to uh guys getting very close to them
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um which is retardedly so That's my own fault for trusting people online and and
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and and talking to them in that way at all You know kind of stupid to do Um um
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and I don't think I'm going to like fall and be like I'm a victim and I shouldn't
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have done all of this I made mistakes I admit that I admit that in the statement that I made in the Discord server Um but
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I don't think all of that even remotely like um warrants a document that is 51
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pages on on a freaking on a freaking VTuber you know i don't think I'm that
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significant I'm not I'm really not I didn't hurt or manipulate any of these people And uh more on that further So
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the only people that are absolutely buttth hurt by this um you can kind of
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decide if it's rightfully so or not is Capta uh one of the guys that has been actively arguing on Twitter right now
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actually um to many of the people Um but
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um he was pretty much the one person that was very very very very aggressive
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He harassed me for months on end Um he harassed to dox me my face um everything
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for months And I will say in the document Bird completely skips the whole
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thing Bird skips the entire thing about
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the harassment that I faced from capture He skips the whole thing The whole Yeah
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Okay Anyways um he also doesn't mention why I was so adamant about getting Capta
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banned and removing him because I got I treated him like we were very close
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Captain and I right we got to a point where we were so close and he would be like I'm like obsessed with you and I
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really love you And that's when I was like yeah we need to back up after that
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cuz I'm not really looking to date I'm sorry And I was like let's stop like
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like let's entirely stop because this isn't going to go anywhere and I don't want it to Um and Captive understood
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that And then um my Discord had a channel called Intel Maxing Not a very
39:29
good idea Never have that But he basically vented a lot there A lot of people a lot of my old Discords uh
39:35
members would probably recognize the name Capta He would vent a lot there He was pretty all over the place Extremely
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[ __ ] emotional person And then after that after that he found out about other
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people that I talked to which is like two people Shovel and Lachland They're also mentioned in the doc I will show
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this from shovel um because it's really funny We had a recent conversation and
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this is uh his this is his um um what's
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it called his how do I say this real on this there we go sorry I'm
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bad with words um here so this is what it this is what it is genuinely people
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being emotional and it has more impact as I'm a streamer holy [ __ ] dude tell me about it I've just been like some people
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literally DM'd me um and said I don't know I didn't know you were a victim I'm so sorry yeaho they're calling people I
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talk to my victims and I'm a predator I was [ __ ] pissed at being called a victim um is calling me calling me that
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Um his doc is like she used her position of power to prey on guys who became her
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victims And and then Shel says "Yeah I imagine he's typing a Down Syndrome
40:52
manifesto at this point Power fame and basically like his opinion on this whole
40:59
thing is this is kind of retarded." Anyways I'm I'm I am bad at keeping [ __ ] on track Um here we go So Capta um
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harassed me after finding out for quite a while We we made a group chat where it
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was kind of discussed All the whole thing was discussed with Capture Block and Shovel Um and Capta was very
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emotional in that chat to say the least That's um that's being very like calm about
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this He was all over the place He was like I need to ruin her life Um here's some screenshots of him being absolutely
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[ __ ] um right there FBI right so before this he
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says "I have nothing to lose Um I can just do whatever." And then he says "Who has everything to lose?" Uh "Do you
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think I give a [ __ ] what happens to me i have nothing left." Sure dude I have zero for my life too Um my dad just died
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This is me Okay Another thing that Bird mentions a lot is is is that I mentioned
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my dad dying to capture Um which is true My dad does have cancer Um and a lot of
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people know that Um not not enough people A lot of people know that but I don't go around parading my [ __ ]
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miseries Um but I told Capta my dad died because this is after he harassed me for
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months This is him harassing Actually I got to show I got to do this chronologically man I'm so sorry Okay
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here we go Um open link Um open link Uh open link Uh open link and open
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link So let me go through this Uh let me go through this Oh my god
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there's some embarrassing screenshots as well of him Okay here we go So he would
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talk in group chats like this about me If you hate if you guys hated someone more than anything and and had the
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option to ruin her life completely ruin their life completely and utterly but yours would also take a hit Would you do
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it or nah okay And here's this You don't get it I have this like physical urge to
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destroy her or at least um own her and it's purely out of
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disgust Yeah And here's screenshots of him DMing me And this is me talking to
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Shovel and Lachland We had a group chat to try to mitigate everything because he was all over the place trying to dox me
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And oh my god I I didn't know how to handle that I even told a bunch of
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people after um that I was getting harassed for a while Um but basically
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Shovel and Lachlan were helping me to get this guy to [ __ ] off
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Okay So here's a here's a um just because you don't feel that way right
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now doesn't mean it'll hold true forever This is this is me basically saying I don't I can't trust you after all of
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this Um right but can we just try one last time now that everything is on the table i truly believe nothing could go
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wrong I fully I finally understand you This is where I should have been This is after by the way this is after him um um
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uh harassing me for a while Um this is after this is after him pretty much
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saying that he wants to dox me and all that [ __ ] to other people about me So yeah this is all that Um and then here's
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the let me try let me try my last wish my last anything Let me prove to you I
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can fix us Okay And uh yeah Um that should show you the capture character at
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least somewhat Um so I just wanted to say that the people that are quote
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unquote involved in the document are all people that were extremely emotional didn't want to [ __ ] talk to me
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normally and were all over the place Absolutely crazy Um and that happened
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for months by the way This happened for months every every other month he would DM me with alt accounts with many alt
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accounts on Twitter on Instagram He would say [ __ ] like "Last chance to talk
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to me Your your life is [ __ ] over." Stuff like that all the time Um and I would always
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just be like "I don't know how to like approach this cuz it's all over the
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[ __ ] place It's kind of outside of my scope." And I always did regret talking to Capture
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um at all with anything trusting that guy at all Um [ __ ] Okay moving on Um
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other people like shovel um we're pretty much in the document kind of gives a
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narrative that says he's talked to shovel and says that shovel has pretty
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much said that like said something about me but he hasn't talked to Shovel at all
45:54
like not once He didn't talk to Shovel at all And then Shovel messaged me and he's
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like "Why am I in the document when he's never talked to me about this at all?"
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You know it it's it's crazy
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Um okay Um no This is okay You You guys
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have probably read the dog Um but yeah Um what else is there uh
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um um I don't say if I get doxed um if I do
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get doxed which probably is going to happen it's
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uh it's um it's it's a it's a it's a it's a get this capsule just saying it's
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um kind of all over the place But from what I've seen from the evidence I've gathered I uh yeah um anyways moving
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on Moving on Um um um what else do I have
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um also I would like to show this one thing that kind of made me laugh in a
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situation that was really serious and I I was just like paranoid and all over the place but this one thing made me
47:23
really really [ __ ] laugh and I would like to show you this Um here here it is Where is it god this
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[ __ ] doc is long Um here we go Here we go I think it's
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here Yeah Okay I would like to show this Um this is me talking to a person
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being who was talking about this whole situation This is quite recent And it
47:53
was me being like "Hey so there's a group chat that me and Bird and his
47:59
other friend were in where I rejected Bird a couple thousand times and I
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argued about all this whole situation with him Not this whole situation but the whole me getting shipped with Bird
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because of his friend cuz he would do that a lot." Um and and and
48:17
and they removed me from the group chat entirely and I was like "Why did they
48:23
remove me from the group chat can they add me back so that I have more like stuff like those are my logs I was just
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removed." So here's been pretty much being like "Oh I'll screen share the logs." And I was like "No can you just
48:35
send them over like I want my [ __ ] logs I want my logs." Right and then Bird puts this screenshot in the
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document All right bird has agreed to give the logs When are you willing to go through them kk send them over Then
48:48
immediately tries to manipulate him This is what he calls manipulation chat This
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is manipulation Me saying "K send them over is
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manipulation." What i'm sorry What that's
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manipulation you've got to be kidding me right like that's that's me saying send
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my locks over I've Yeah
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Um it's just kind of weirdly petty and insane to to call that manipulation
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Um Um Yeah I
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Yeah Chad she's scratching her balls Sorry it's a weird uh weird hand tracking My bad Okay Okay
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Uh okay What else do I have that I need to
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I need to address before I You're see Elf you're a woman and you
49:57
said something that's manipulation I admit I'm a woman and the reason I say fem cells don't exist by the way and
50:04
I've never called myself a female even once by the way um is to just say it's
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[ __ ] easy Even for men it's easy to go get girls It's online None of this is
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real Everything is online I've never had sex in real [ __ ]
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life I've never And I'm a very awkward person in real
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life Extremely awkward Um I don't get
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game And I still don't call myself a fem cell cuz I know that that's not [ __ ]
50:37
real Okay Okay Sorry I got to sneeze
50:49
I will also say um I was told by pretty much Idol Bros and Boo Bros that parasocialism
50:55
is like not bad at all and it it it's like nice and whatever but after all
51:01
these events have happened I would like to say I Yeah I get it Parasocial
51:07
[ __ ] it sucks Being parasocial sucks Um
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parasocialism is ass Uh it goes really far People try to dox you People try to
51:19
spread [ __ ] about you It's all over the place And I didn't
51:25
know the extent to how far this can go I frankly was quite new to the vtubing scene or the streaming scene or anything
51:33
And I am a [ __ ] I admit that I trusted people I
51:38
shouldn't have I admit to talking to people and getting close to people I shouldn't have because I have no friends
51:45
in real life and I'm I'm sorry But that's the only apology I will make I will not apologize for quote
51:53
unquote manipulating people when I never have and for what I never gained None of
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these people paid me for anything Um I never gained anything financially The only person that donated
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was Bird By his own reasonings by his own he want He said he wanted to help me
52:12
as a friend with no ulterior motives If you want proof actually I have proof for that Of course I do
52:17
Um here's me talking to his friend Um
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okay And here we go Here's me talking to his friend Um this is me pretty much
52:29
going try what happens if I me feel happy for a moment This is his friend being like "Oh why don't you give Bird a
52:36
chance or why don't you just be happy with whatever?" And I said "Don't go put your fantasies with your boyfriend or
52:42
something Um I don't have the same [ __ ] you do." And then he said "Why are you so against it?" Like genuine question
52:48
And I said "Because it implies other shit." And then he said "If you say so I just take the opportunity to get cared
52:54
for while you have it I won't argue with you on this though If it crosses your boundaries then so be it Bird's happy to
53:01
take care of care of you in a non in a uh in a non Wait where's the whole screenshot in a non-romantic or sexual
53:07
way is what he says But where the [ __ ] is the screenshot oops Okay Anyways here's the second one If you say so I'll
53:14
take the opportunity to get Oh there we go There I think I won't argue with it if it cross your boundaries Birds happy to take care of you in a non-romantic
53:20
non sexual way Just so you know Um Um
53:26
Hard to find guys that aren't doing it for some ulterior motive So I'm glad he
53:32
is Um yeah So I made sure that the money being
53:41
donated to me I made sure even ages ago I made sure to ask him if this was for
53:49
an ulterior motive because I I that
53:54
money helped me a lot with my tuition and my rent cuz my family doesn't give me money at all I have to work or stream
54:01
to earn money myself So that was a huge help to me and Brent helping me and
54:07
saying I would do this for a friend I've done this for others I was just like this is glorious I'm so thankful of this
54:16
But ultimately it did end up being for an ulterior motive And that was proven by this doc
54:24
And yeah it was Yeah
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Um okay Here's here's something Also my explicit pictures that
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I sent especially to Bird were solely when I was drunk Um and that was proven by the
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screenshot within the dock of me [ __ ] typing like a [ __ ] Now normally you would argue "Elphin you always type like
54:52
a retard." I agree But look at these Do I not look exceptionally [ __ ] in
54:58
this um where is it where is it there Um he provided a
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translation for this one um as well So just for the people that can't understand what I said there I type like
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a [ __ ] there And like
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um you you're not being manipulated if you yourself choose to call someone who
55:29
you know is a drunk [ __ ] Especially after the first time if it's happened
55:34
once and you're like damn she's kind of a [ __ ] gooner and she's like drunk calling I probably shouldn't talk to her
55:42
while she's drunk you can just kind of you know
55:48
stop But you didn't You chose to keep it up So I don't know I You can't call
55:55
yourself a victim It's impossible You can't Especially
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when Especially when Especially when
56:08
you're quite older than me I'm not playing the victim card at all
56:14
I'm just saying you can't call yourself a victim You know all the [ __ ] that
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happened happened Yeah but you can't say you're a victim That's just
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wrong Um
56:50
spammer Okay moving on Moving on Moving on Um what else do I have
56:59
cia What else do I have
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um I don't know
57:47
Okay Also here's here's something Um here's here's another screenshot
57:53
that's I guess important relative to the topic Um
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uh okay Sako saying after a certain point she said stuff like we will never
58:05
date so get that idea out of your head and I kind of just went with it Bird said she said to me eventually but never
58:11
directly to me and it was in a group chat Lol That makes no difference If I
58:16
if I said if I rejected you then that's a rejection I don't
58:22
know you know um in that post she actually said something like "Oh and he
58:28
knows that." Which is stupid cuz all she said to me about dating was one that dating people around her age was a waste
58:34
of time and two to me who was [ __ ] older And two that she's never had or
58:41
seen a relationship be successful in her life which is like obviously doesn't mean [ __ ] Again hard to argue she was
58:46
not purposefully stringing along Now saying that I was purposefully stringing along is kind of funny to say because I
58:52
have a literal screenshot of me rejecting him He he says he provides he says he provides um a
59:01
screenshot of me rejecting him But what he did was he said the singular time that I rejected him But what he did was
59:08
he accidentally gave me the second rejection that um uh the second time I
59:14
rejected him So now I have two uh rejections essentially And that's
59:20
probably not a good thing Let me show you Uh sorry it's just a really big dog
59:26
I have to scroll past the [ __ ] I don't know where it is Um
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uh Okay Sorry Um I'm not Okay
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Um
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um uh
1:00:02
uh uh where is
1:00:08
it god this is really hard to like go skim through I don't know where the [ __ ] it is
1:00:24
Okay you know what i'll just show you guys the other rejection and then I'll get back to this one in a bit It's a lot
1:00:31
I need to need to skim through
1:00:40
it Okay I can't I can't Okay here's here's
1:00:46
something I'm not British by the way I need to clarify Uh here we go This is me
1:00:52
rejecting and pretty much admitting to what happened Um I would have never done a meetup ever I genuinely felt bad about
1:00:59
it getting cancelled last time because he spent money for me Also this is referring to his friend pretty much
1:01:05
messaging me and saying he spent a lot of money on you and you didn't meet him
1:01:10
And I was like "But I'm a really awkward person and I don't meet people I'm pretty [ __ ] bad." Oh Oh [ __ ] I should
1:01:17
have shown you guys this before this Just a sec Just a sec I should have shown you guys this before this
1:01:25
Um sorry Here we
1:01:31
go Here we go I I should show you guys this before because this will paint a picture of
1:01:37
what was happening This is how um I was pretty much pretty much like told to
1:01:45
meet him Elvin if I move to the UK tomorrow how much uh do I have to do to convince you to uh have me as your
1:01:51
caretaker you can't Why not why can't I because I don't want it Uh what do you [ __ ] want i just
1:01:57
fixed Okay this is by the way this is me during like an emotional kind of like I was having like a breakdown or something
1:02:04
and I was like stressing about things and he is always like "You can come to me and talk to me about it." So this is
1:02:10
me for once doing that Um if you don't address the brutishes it'll come back Take the help I'm offering you dude No I
1:02:16
don't want a [ __ ] caretaker A friend then We already are online Um you know I mean in person No why not i'm fine
1:02:24
now you know Uh okay I'm fine Yeah Key words being now dude Um I'd like you to
1:02:30
genuinely be fine all the time Everything will be better once I get my first airsoft gun so don't worry Um you
1:02:35
know I'll constantly worry lol Positive Plane tickets to the UK are uber cheap for the time Uh be being because the
1:02:40
country is on fire Give me one day Would you kindly can I talk to you without you suggesting visiting me in person every
1:02:46
time i don't want to I don't want you to And that's it So that was kind of how it went all
1:02:55
the time And he's also had many many many many instances of sending me plane tickets and showing me like screenshots
1:03:04
of plane tickets of like hey um I can meet you like if you want I can come
1:03:09
help you I know you're alone and you don't talk to people I can be the one that's like there and whatever And I'd
1:03:15
always just be like I'd always try to like nah or or I'd like try to be I
1:03:23
don't know just subtly tell him to like stop Um here's the here's the proof of
1:03:28
me like admitting to that that I never wanted to Um I would have never done a
1:03:33
meet up ever I genuinely felt bad about get it getting cancelled last time because he spent money for me I don't like when people do that in general
1:03:40
despite now being a streamer It was still wasted money I had to make it up I'm trying my best here Um uh I don't
1:03:47
want to be taken in the wrong way like a date and he knows that So this is me
1:03:54
blatantly blatantly saying this and
1:03:59
um so when he goes around telling people she led me on she led me on she did this
1:04:05
and that and whatever I just I can't like that's just you're just lying dude
1:04:11
Like stop blatantly lying man It's just it's just [ __ ] stupid
1:04:19
Um okay Anyways uh also people talking about the Discord I will say I wanted to
1:04:26
say this in the end I'm [ __ ] genuinely sorry I deleted it but you
1:04:32
need to understand the past few months the past two months have been
1:04:37
so [ __ ] tiring Every day there would be snippets of
1:04:44
like what the [ __ ] is happening or what is happening and all these like tiny
1:04:49
details and him going to my going to the people going to the people and [ __ ]
1:04:55
lying about all this stuff Um and and
1:05:01
and like I don't know I deleted it because he said to Sako um in in some of
1:05:09
the chats he said he said I'm going to pretty much
1:05:16
make all of her close friends like close-knit community hate her Um I have screenshots of this ju just I mean the
1:05:23
one I've already showed where he's like I don't want her to like like she won't feel secure and stuff
1:05:29
Um after all this um which is true I don't I I can't trust anyone Um CIA guy
1:05:37
right there FBI right after all of this Uh okay Let me
1:05:45
uh um um I need to find the exact
1:05:52
one Okay Uh okay Here This is the the one
1:06:00
screenshot that he uh because in my head all the vets leaving us crashing up
1:06:05
privately then her having to comb through the morons to try to rebuild Technically she can re recover but she
1:06:11
won't be able to and that's on her That's kind of what his intentions were with uh this whole thing He wanted
1:06:19
basically my career to be over He wanted me to lose everything that I built up
1:06:24
over um this past year Um and
1:06:33
uh if I'm being dead ass dudes like this are how you end up on a true prime channel I'm I know I'm I was very
1:06:40
[ __ ] I I I'm Yeah In I guess in
1:06:46
conclusion I would just like to say I'm not denying being a [ __ ] I'm
1:06:52
not denying talking to people and getting very close to them I was never
1:06:58
GF Um I was never um uh I never I was
1:07:03
never GFE Never claimed to be a female or anything like that I just want to put that out there None of these guys over
1:07:08
overlapped right none of them over overlapped Um and I never got any I never got any
1:07:18
like what's it called i never got any um financial gain from talking to these
1:07:25
people None of them even gave me money It was just Bird that donated And I've already shown you that he said he never
1:07:31
had ulterior motives Him his friend and him both said that Um
1:07:36
um there was a rejection two blatant rejections There were many more but they
1:07:42
demonstrate how like you cannot use the argument that you got led on in any capacity I
1:07:50
would also like to address that the the document has a skip It has a [ __ ]
1:07:55
time skip um between the conversation between me and Bird because I completely stopped talking to him in that sense
1:08:02
entirely after April last year I would also like to say [ __ ] most of them
1:08:08
gave you money No you [ __ ] No they didn't Um all the people that are named
1:08:16
here none of them gave me money Only bird did That is a fact You can fact check that I don't care Do it
1:08:23
Um but you can't make that argument at all It's impossible
1:08:33
Um okay I need to drink I'm
1:08:48
sorry Sorry Um I would also like to give you some context about Bird if that's okay Um
1:08:55
Bird was a booo from Yuko Uure and he
1:09:01
also donated a lot to Yuko as well Um and he said that he was never into her
1:09:08
GF stuff He was just donating for the sake of it And that's kind of a huge
1:09:14
reason as to why I um thought he didn't have ulterior motives Um so yeah that
1:09:22
uh that was um yeah um another thing is Bird also
1:09:29
felt entitled to knowing everything about me Um he was like why didn't he he
1:09:36
pretty much said to everyone she could have come to me with all the sh all the stuff that was happening but she didn't
1:09:42
and I should have known Um and I was just the whole time I was kind of like why should I come to you like you're not
1:09:49
really you're not really like I don't know you're not my manager Um the whole
1:09:56
manager stuff as well uh came from Idol Bros Actually him and his friend Um well
1:10:04
I would say it was kind of like I was put on the pedestal of hey indies need
1:10:10
managers Like they need them Um and Bird would be a good manager And I was just
1:10:16
like hm I I guess I mean I guess you're right about that And one of my editors
1:10:21
was basically like you need to give him the manager role Like you need to give him the title of manager or else I'll
1:10:29
stop editing for you Um and that was like okay that's kind of h
1:10:35
um okay that's fine then I guess But I didn't give him the the title I didn't
1:10:42
He wanted a roll on Discord Okay that's and that's going into too much detail I'm sorry It's just a lot of information
1:10:47
I'm sorry for info dumping you guys but he did info dump as well Um um quite
1:10:55
a lot Uh yeah Um I've handled pretty much most
1:11:01
of everything myself All the merch stuff myself I think only the patch was handled by him
1:11:08
somewhat but everything else I handled myself Um yeah
1:11:15
Um I'm sorry that I'm [ __ ] guys I'm
1:11:20
sorry that I made these mistakes trusting people talking to people And
1:11:26
I'm sorry that it all became the shitfest drama fest when it shouldn't have It should have been solved
1:11:33
privately and it shouldn't have been the scheming conspiracy [ __ ] behind my back
1:11:38
about my own information Um they should have come to me and talk to
1:11:45
me and we could have sorted this but it didn't work that way So um yeah Um
1:11:54
um yeah Uh I I guess that's a lot of stuff I
1:12:00
already had to show Um biggest statement though never goon
1:12:07
Never [ __ ] goon It will always end badly Never goon [ __ ] no dude And to all
1:12:14
the YouTubers probably watching this don't trust a single [ __ ] soul dude Even if you have no friends in in real
1:12:21
life they will get drunk and just go to people and talk [ __ ] about you and spread [ __ ] and just talk about your
1:12:28
secrets and then and then try to apologize like you [ __ ] you
1:12:34
wish Never [ __ ] goon Okay if you're a content creator don't trust anyone
1:12:40
online No matter how trustworthy they may seem no matter how many times they say "Hey you could trust me I would never betray you." They will betray you
1:12:48
Okay they will betray you I've been betrayed by so many people over this past like
1:12:57
however long this facade has gone on I have been betrayed by all the people I I
1:13:03
thought were my friends Most of them And a lot of people that didn't fall into the traps of this cherry-picking
1:13:09
screenshot [ __ ] and don't care that I'm a [ __ ] [ __ ] gooner [ __ ] for
1:13:16
making these mistakes I humbly apologize for put for making you go through this
1:13:22
None of it will [ __ ] happen again That's for sure Um I guess you know bird succeeded in that
1:13:28
Um I will say I'll never stop being [ __ ] but I will stop trusting people
1:13:36
and having I don't know just talking to people in DMs is really [ __ ] As a
1:13:42
content creator I please urge you do not trust anyone in real life uh online If
1:13:47
you have friends in real life keep them They're important Um I didn't from the start from the moment I started
1:13:53
streaming until now I don't and I'm very re-evaluating my situation here I
1:13:59
definitely need someone in real life cuz this is kind of crazy I I'm [ __ ] I
1:14:06
need someone in real life genuinely to to help me with uh whatever my [ __ ]
1:14:11
problems are I'm not excusing any of my actions by calling myself mentally ill
1:14:16
or saying I was alcohol I'm an alcoholic All of those things are true but they do not
1:14:22
um kind of I don't know they don't like overpower my own actions because I am an
1:14:29
adult and I made these choices I made the choices of trusting people I made the choices of talking to people I made
1:14:35
the choices of being a goonette Um I take responsibility for that but I do
1:14:40
not take responsibility for I do not apologize for you saying that you got
1:14:46
manipulated by me because you didn't None of the other guys did either They knew what they were doing They were half
1:14:53
of them were older than me They all knew what they were doing All of them were aware whatever
1:15:04
Um yeah and this situation kind of just showed me that there's a lot of snakes
1:15:11
um everywhere and the people you think are your closest friends can turn out to be snakes Um there were some people that
1:15:18
were not hearing my side of the story didn't talk to me at all They just immediately started believing stuff um
1:15:26
not even questioning that it might have been cherrypicked or that there's more to the story than just that
1:15:33
Um but yeah I know those people and I know to stay away from them now And I know the [ __ ] real ones that stayed
1:15:41
by me and supported me in all of this and understood my standing I really
1:15:46
[ __ ] appreciate you guys Like genuinely each [ __ ] comment counted as something I genuinely it felt it felt
1:15:56
incredible just seeing people like understand um stuff you know Um again
1:16:04
all of the hate comments are mostly going to be like "Wow she talked to people Boohoo I talked to people." I I'm
1:16:13
sorry for that I guess like the one thing that is I'm genuinely apologetic
1:16:20
of is bringing this drama into your lives This was not needed at all I'm so
1:16:25
sorry for all my fans that genuinely are here for my content and they just got
1:16:30
wrapped into this [ __ ] shitfest because of this one guy who was too immature to even come to me and talk to
1:16:36
me personally Like all of this couldn't could have been avoided if you just came into DM'd me voice chated with me like
1:16:44
you didn't It's just my biggest mistake is trusting people and I'm sorry for
1:16:50
doing that As a content creator I should not be doing that As a content creator I should not be in the in my Discord
1:16:56
server in the voice chat at all times because I can't take being alone I understand that I was at fault uh on
1:17:02
that part But yeah the document I give it a two out of 10 for trying to be an
1:17:11
expose but ultimately looking [ __ ] Ultimately looking very stupid leaving
1:17:17
out a lot of the context leaving out a lot of the stuff that happened Uh leaving out and cherrypicking stuff in
1:17:24
general and having weirdly phrased stuff Um I would just like to say yeah it's
1:17:31
genuinely all over the place genuinely Um yeah And all of this could
1:17:36
have been avoided had they been adults Um all of this could have been avoided Um but yeah I'm Yeah
1:17:47
I Yeah Um Um yeah I I I would also like to
1:17:55
clarify this has been going on for two months He has been making the dock for weeks now And
1:18:02
um yeah uh hey can you show the second rejection
1:18:07
oh yeah yeah yeah I I might as well um just a sec Uh just a sec Let me try to
1:18:13
find it so that
1:18:23
uh let me let me try to find it
1:18:30
Okay here we go Here we go Open link Um sorry for being all over the place It's
1:18:38
a lot of screenshots Okay here we go Here's the second here's the second
1:18:44
rejection Move in with me I'll keep you safe from internet weirdos Yeah dude I'm not falling for that man Um here here it
1:18:53
is Um hey I just want to say I'm grateful you spent a lot of time on me a lot on me and give me stuff and spend
1:18:59
money on me and are taking me out and stuff but please don't do it if you have any ulterior motives not negative connotation about it Um cuz the way it
1:19:07
was phrased before was I just want to have fun and not this is going to be a date This is his friend talking elf He
1:19:12
and I talked about at length about this whole [ __ ] Um even if you guys are only friends he will be happy with you as
1:19:18
long as you end up with a happy life long term If you are happy he is happy That's the brass tax simplest take uh
1:19:25
away you wanted you you can need from that I'm glad Sorry if I'm iffy about these subjects Not really good with guys
1:19:31
like that So I pretend home like relationships so that it's easier for me to talk That's just me like you know
1:19:37
just saying that I'm awkward with stuff Um this is Yeah
1:19:44
So that is my second um attempt I guess at making
1:19:50
things blatant and like hey I'm not you know in
1:19:57
whatever okay um okay um it's sad uh that permanent
1:20:04
loss of trust in other people has basically become a prerequisite to operate that is true yes that is uh very
1:20:10
true um Okay Um
1:20:17
yeah Okay Um um
1:20:34
um this is by the way I would also like to clarify that I've had that argument with them like on voice chat a lot um me
1:20:41
and his friend who would always ship us together Me and him have argued countless times about how I don't want
1:20:47
to get shipped with bird Um and he never mentions that even once I got kicked out from the group chat I argued in a lot
1:20:55
like entirely So I cannot show you the logs in that
1:21:00
Um but yeah um about the Discord server Moving on to something that uh I'm sorry
1:21:07
for deleting it I was really paranoid I was all over the [ __ ] place about all of this But now that it's all out I can
1:21:13
talk about this freely and I'm glad that I can talk about this freely honestly cuz it was weighing on me
1:21:20
Um the Discord server was deleted and I'm sorry it was I know it was a lot it was a good place for a lot of people I
1:21:27
know it was um it was it was it was a very
1:21:34
incredible place I miss it so much I always like kind of kind of put my
1:21:39
cursor there trying to like open my Discord but it's not there It makes me feel [ __ ] sad cuz it was like the one
1:21:46
hangout spot that I had you know it's gone now though And it's depressing and I'm really sorry but it had to happen
1:21:54
you know courtesy this drama Um um and people were not being mature at
1:22:01
all Um and and I'm sorry about that but
1:22:07
streams are still going to go on Um I would like to stream more for you guys I
1:22:13
think that this was not worth the document Um these instances were not
1:22:19
worth um all this shitfest all this unnecessary drama
1:22:26
Um I I would like to I would like to stream
1:22:31
normally every day It's the one thing I've enjoyed in my life other than being miserable
1:22:37
Um I would want to stream for you guys and I think that my
1:22:44
community are not a bunch of [ __ ] simps I think most of my community
1:22:50
actually from the responses I've gathered are like [ __ ] based as [ __ ]
1:22:55
I don't know They they have this opinion of this drama is stupid It shouldn't have happened Which is exactly what I
1:23:02
would like to say as well It's just kind of stupid that this happened Um
1:23:12
guy right there right um yeah I Oh hi
1:23:19
Shovel Um three pages of Gon Silver Nothing happened Crazy It's a lot of
1:23:25
It's a lot of personal [ __ ] It's a lot of embarrassing stuff It's a lot
1:23:31
of embarrassing screenshots of me saying very stupid things when drunk And I hate
1:23:39
looking at them cuz it's very like when you look at drunk texts while sober you just want to kill yourself
1:23:45
I It's very hard to look at the dog cuz it's very cringe Um but yeah
1:23:56
Um yeah I Yeah Um yeah I I won't have a I mean I
1:24:03
don't really intend to have a Discord server for a while cuz it's just kind of iffy It's just all over the place Um I
1:24:10
don't say I do want to stream for you guys every day I want to I've been all
1:24:16
this time It's like kind of the depression kind of makes you more creative in a sense So I've been making
1:24:24
a lot of stuff Uh a lot of Lumi art a lot of the stuff in general I I just
1:24:30
focused on that and I was like "Hey once this is over I can't wait to just get
1:24:36
back into [ __ ] streaming and just be normal and just you know I I've been inactive I was on hiatus cuz I didn't
1:24:43
know how to deal with this I'm not really well equipped with um dealing with stuff like this I'm not good with
1:24:50
drama That's why I never try to get into drama Um but yeah Uh main takeaway TLDDR
1:24:57
for the Twitter [ __ ] that aren't going to watch the stream Um TLDDR None of the guys over overlapped Um all of the guys
1:25:04
were consenting adults None of them got manipulated by me All of them were very all of them were older than me Um
1:25:13
um and uh and this is stupid We could have handled this privately but we
1:25:19
didn't and whatever Um and
1:25:25
uh yeah Um yeah
1:25:31
Um yeah Um my job for the creativity in the
1:25:36
first place of seeing the Twitter [ __ ] I'm glad Thank you Uh Lumi I actually went into Lumi chat yesterday and I
1:25:42
typed it and she called me her little sister I was going to show you guys that on
1:25:48
Twitter but um Okay Sorry Sorry for ESL and I'm not
1:25:55
going to pretend I never had doubts about you but not going to lie the way you've handled the situation now actually made me sub and trust you even
1:26:00
more I'm I'm glad I've wanted to be transparent as I can Look there's Bird
1:26:06
says that I haven't been transparent enough because I've hid stuff from people but the reality of the matter is
1:26:12
you wouldn't want people to know embarrassing [ __ ] you've done Like I've said some stupid things like you've seen
1:26:18
in the dock I just didn't want to go to Bird and be like I I did this and I
1:26:25
talked to this guy Like it's just so stupid I like you're not my dad I'm not
1:26:31
going to come to you and tell you everything I don't know So I'm trying to be as transparent but also not just
1:26:39
overshare and give you too much information because info dumping is stupid I want to be concise so that yeah
1:26:49
um yeah uh yeah
1:26:55
um um yeah um you're probably a little too
1:27:02
transparent but at the end of the day people know what I'm like okay people
1:27:07
know what they ask people know what they're signing up for when they start watching my streams like I'm [ __ ]
1:27:13
that's kind of the Well I call myself [ __ ] all the time They know what they're they know how I am So if I'm
1:27:21
transparent about this I'm sure people more so will understand Um rather than I
1:27:28
don't know I never claimed to be perfect I never claimed to be GF I never claimed "Hey guys I'm such a saint." No I'm
1:27:35
stupid I They'll admit that I'm very stupid I trust people that I shouldn't
1:27:41
trust at all that have betrayed me quite a lot Um a lot a lot a lot actually And
1:27:49
and never again never [ __ ] again Um so
1:27:55
yeah Um yeah
1:28:01
Um yeah I guess that's uh that's pretty much
1:28:07
uh I think the way I handled this inspired confidence in comparison to Gumpai was sparked out Well with Gai's
1:28:13
situation it was very different I don't know why I'm being compared to her She had a boyfriend while having a GF
1:28:19
community I My community is not GF I I'll put that out there as well My G My community is not GF I am not GF I've
1:28:28
never been GF um ever I
1:28:33
um I've never dated anyone I still haven't Um and
1:28:40
yeah Yeah Um
1:28:50
I like you being too transparent Don't get me wrong It's probably not healthy Yeah I
1:28:56
guess Uh Okay Um
1:29:03
um okay Uh GF means girlfriend experience
1:29:08
By the way it's YouTubers that pretend to be your girlfriend Um yeah I'm sorry about the dangers of
1:29:15
the parasocial the hard way Please install a analyzer for your phone computer H totally going to to the gym
1:29:23
with the elephant shaker today Love you elephant A thank you Um you're nicer than me I just post a goofy name and I I
1:29:30
uh effing do it again and move on I I want to be as [ __ ] mature as I can
1:29:35
because he wasn't mature and I can show what maturity looks like I can I'm trying to
1:29:41
be I'm just showing you facts and evidence like I'm [ __ ] what's his
1:29:47
name ben Shapiro
1:29:52
Um yeah Um
1:29:57
um are we getting the Discord back uh like I said I don't want to jump to that
1:30:03
that fast It will be just full of [ __ ] at this point Maybe couple months down the line Okay Um yeah
1:30:12
you got to be frank You got to step away from this You're too young for a bunch of unhel online strangers to essentially lust after you I I get that but I
1:30:20
[ __ ] love streaming I will just stay away from everything else But I do enjoy
1:30:26
streaming a lot I don't want to quit streaming ever Um right
1:30:35
Sorry Um love you elephant We'll always
1:30:40
continue to support you The drama thing was so [ __ ] I'm so glad Thank you Thank you so much Kyle
1:30:46
Um Um yeah Yeah Okay Um
1:30:54
uh so yeah uh to to end it on a good note occasional viewer here Sorry you
1:31:00
had to go through all of this BS fkm Thank you Cece Thank you so much for the
1:31:06
dono I really appreciate you Um um to end it on like a better note um perhaps
1:31:14
just you know end it on a funnier note Um they fell for the sire Absolute
1:31:22
s Absolute s This is not not me laughing at the
1:31:30
whole situation I know this is a serious situation and a lot of people were hurt by it This is drama fest and none of this should have happened I'm sorry
1:31:35
about that But um I just want you guys to know that it could all have been avoided Um
1:31:45
and and and and and
1:31:52
and Oh is my mic peeking my bad Oops Let me do it
1:31:58
again Let me do it again They fell for the absolute
1:32:09
cinema Okay
1:32:15
Yep Okay Um right there right
1:32:23
um this has ruined the GF girl experience with how you well you handle the situation Pretty sure I was all over
1:32:29
the place I uh my heart is still beating a lot Um because it's a lot to handle
1:32:37
It's a lot Yeah it was a lot of waste of time this
1:32:43
entire month of just nothingness and [ __ ] [ __ ] People turning their backs What this show what this has shown me is
1:32:49
there were a lot of snakes um that I can now pretty much um you know like just
1:32:55
tell who's a snake and who's not It's really easy to tell that by people like
1:33:00
how they behave how they act how the [ __ ] they say um whose side they're on all that stuff It just Yeah Um so kind
1:33:09
of a lesson big lesson to learn Um big lesson for
1:33:14
me right um yeah I know you guys are telling me
1:33:20
to relax and whatever but you need to understand I've been going through this [ __ ] for two months now
1:33:27
Like everyone's been DMing me and saying [ __ ] and like elf why did you do it and
1:33:34
stuff and I've just been all over the place cuz I have to like talk to these
1:33:40
people and be like "You haven't seen both sides." There's a lot
1:33:45
Um yeah it's Yeah Uh please bring about the Discord
1:33:52
Okay thanks It's not going to happen for a while I'm sorry Um yeah
1:34:01
Um okay Okay Uh I don't know how to end something like this Um I just want to
1:34:09
say I I just want to say I really really appreciate you guys and I really really
1:34:16
really appreciate that you reversed me in all this drama and I'm sorry for not
1:34:21
being um like open from the start I didn't want it to blow up like blow out
1:34:26
of proportions like this cuz I don't like drama Um I I'm happy that honestly
1:34:33
I'm happy this happened so that I could just be [ __ ] transparent and open Um
1:34:40
and all the people that did stay and all the people that waited for my side of the
1:34:46
story like you're actually [ __ ] incredible Thank you for doing that Thank you for at least hearing my side
1:34:53
of the story Um and and um and thank you for all the people that
1:35:01
were there and would message me kind words and say that this is [ __ ] I
1:35:06
really [ __ ] appreciate like it all of these messages helped a lot in in during all this Um um sorry I'm being sappy
1:35:14
It's just it was a lot to go with It was a lot that was happening I lost a lot of friends but I also gained a lot of true
1:35:22
friends So um yeah I really love you guys I would like
1:35:29
to continue streaming I don't think this is at all career ending Um everyone was
1:35:36
a [ __ ] in this No one was innocent No one was being manipulated No one was innocent Not one person Um including me
1:35:43
No one was innocent Um thank you for watching this gay fest And I hope you
1:35:50
got at least some entertainment out of this whole thing because then it will all be for nothing
1:35:57
And yeah Um yeah I really really appreciate you guys Um you guys are
1:36:04
genuinely all I have I don't really have I don't know They'll think they'll look
1:36:09
at this and be like "Oh she's manipulating again." But genuinely I have no friends in real life and you guys are all I have and I really enjoy
1:36:15
streaming and I would like to continue streaming and I really really really appreciate you I really appreciate you
1:36:20
Really really do Um thank you for coming and thank you I'm sorry for all this
1:36:26
drama and I keep saying that I'm so sorry Um oh [ __ ] Um I just got here and
1:36:34
didn't know what was going on I hope you feel better Oh thank you so much for the doodle Thank you so much for the super chat I really really appreciate it Hey
1:36:41
thank you for looks like a Chad in their talks I'm not going to read that cuz uh
1:36:46
but yeah thank you guys Thank you so much I'll see you tomorrow If any drama
1:36:53
channels picked this up um hello I'm Elfin SC up And usually my
1:37:00
channel isn't very dramatic or super dramaish I'm just [ __ ] Stuff
1:37:06
happened Uh but yeah uh thank you so much I'm I'm happy to be back
1:37:16
Jesus Uh thank you so much Um I'll see you guys soon Also I got a bass guitar
1:37:23
and I want to play it on stream and I hope you guys will like it But anyways thank you so much for coming I love you all Sorry the server died Thank you for
1:37:30
watching this I love you all Um and and and and I appreciate you And the
1:37:38
elephant side up situation is crazy Bye-bye everyone
1:37:44
Bye-bye Bye Bye Bye