Also, once it releases you wanna play some pokemon with me?

interesting

Or as the Japanese layout is, 2024, 10, 30

huh?

Ngl I still have a little while longer to wait for my game

Damn

No

Also have you gotten your account email switched yet uwu

I dunno

Anything tbh

what about?

Wanna chat?

I'm kinda lonely tbh

I hope so

just busy or something

I'm super worried now qwq

I hope so too

I hope she's doing ok

she said we could do the group chat today but I haven't heard from her for at least 2 hours now

Also, when do I get to talk to Stealthy again? I really miss her qwq

A globe is a monogon uwu

Huh

https://youtube.com/shorts/-UAUiSJP8tU?si=qKBPFxqh5nnUet5m

What?

Did you know about monogons uwu

Thanks

It’s alright, December

Also sorry about just disappearing last night

Yey

I’m alright

How're you doing?

Heya

Hey

It's not your fault what happened to your mom, December.

Idk

it's hard to let go of self-hatred, it really is I know, but you don't deserve to be putting that burden on yourself

. . .

We can't change the past, we can't undo what we said to someone we love who's gone now. I know that it hurts, and I know that it's hard, but the best thing we can do is let go of our regrets. It isn't easy, and we'll probably feel like shit along the way, but ultimately we'll come out better for it. And December, remember that your mom is never truly gone. She may not be there physically, but she will always live on in your heart, in your memories. All the happiest moments you had with each other, every heartfelt moment, its all still there with you.

It's all pain that wears heavily on me

That's not true

All I've ever felt is pain

killing yourself is not the way out

They wouldn't be able to hurt me anymore

all you would do is just hurt the ones that love you

Not even death will reunite us...?

You aren't going to see her again, December

Please! Let me end my suffering, let me see mother again

You mean far too much to me and Stealthy for either of us to let you do that

Honestly, I'd do anything to get you to let me shoot myself

Don't, December.

Honestly, all I wanna do is put a bullet in my head

I'm proud of you for that

I will

if they try to contact you, you leave immediately

Natalie is blocked

and if Nat ever tries to contact you, you block her or leave the chat immediately, got it?

I'm getting pizza'd again

as in, your dad ordered it? or are you getting pizza'd again?

Off topic but someone ordered pizza

Your mom wouldn't want that

...

it isn't right to you or her memory

It's all my fault... I tore my own family apart, breaking myself in the process

There is nobody at fault for what happened to your mother, least of all you.

All I see is the boy who's responsible for his mother's death

I see a sweet girl who's been abused for far too long.

I don't get it, what is it that you see in me?

No hurting yourself, understand?

Qwq

No self-harm period

Can I at least cut...?

it's not worth it at all

Alright

I can't guarantee it'll be tonight, but I'll figure out when we can do it as soon as possible

After I do dishes

I just need to organize a good time

How if she won't talk to me

show her

I've literally done what you wanted

I've told you why she's avoiding you December, it's not beyond fixing.

My life basically became pointless the moment Stealthy stopped talking to me, not exactly her fault though

December, talk to me

Everything is worthless at this point

You are worth far more than you realize, December.

Please, just let me pull the trigger, please just let me go

how do you think I would feel?

I've basically ran out of reasons to live, and I'mma die anyways at some point

December, no.

Honestly it doesn't look like that bad an idea anymore

December do not hurt yourself, that is exactly what they want and it isn't worth it.

Also btw

This

what does this have to do with you "becoming a new person"?

And ofc typical Natalie fashion she immediately started cussing me out despite supposedly leaving me alone

December, what is going on

Also when Natalie called me a Shreds dickrider I looked right at her and said "Shreds can go off themselves I don't give a flying rat's ass"

huh?

@🔥𝓐𝓬𝓻𝓮𝔃𝓾𝓵🎸

I'm kinda lonely currently so it'd be nice to chat if you wanna ^w^

Oki :3

I think so

This look decent?

https://x.com/Beowulfdacutie/status/1846509414640951508?t=PgNtS97FZKYc44KJly0MVw&s=19

Decemberちゃん, Demi Fiend (@Beowulfdacutie) on X

Oh dear God not this guy calling me a suicide baiter

Twitter • 10/16/2024 07:12:05 EDT

I luv you cutie goober ^w^

a-

boops the cutie

Wanna chat?

True

I don't live in the mountains, they're probably targetting places like Asheville

Yey ^w^

I'll be alright

Please don't get hurt alright? I don't wanna lose my best friend

Yeah mom told me about it

Also on the note of this please stay safe

huh?

You see the two trump related trending hashtags on Twitter yet?

Yw cutie goober owo

Thanks

Also I luv you cutie

Aww, I was hoping I could get you to buy me Persona 4 Golden and in return I'd buy you game pass core once I had 9.99

I don't have a payment service

Can I steal 19.99 from you -w-

yeah?

Hey can I ask a quick dumb question?

Like just stare at it for a minute and tell me, I fucking swear it's animated

Nope

Is Stealthy's profile banner animated?

Yes?

Can I ask a quick question?

True

The only reason I'm apprehensive about talking to him again is because I don't want to deal with him obsessing over roles in my discord server and comparing himself to my other friends

I see

okay let me clear something up: I don't hate Cyber. I just think he's misguided and obsessive. He has flaws to work on, that's all there is to it.

can you show me the full context behind this please?

Thanks

I'll let Stealthy know

@🔥𝓐𝓬𝓻𝓮𝔃𝓾𝓵🎸?

Also can you have Stealthy call me?

you're alright

Sorry if I was being pushy btw

I have made it clear I do not want to be around Cyber, please do not try to make me talk to them again

Don't need to be friends, but you two should still attempt to make up to each other

No, I don't want to associate with him anymore

Sounds to me like you two should try clearing things up

I did respect Cyber. That is a lie. I told him it made me uncomfortable how obsessive he was about that one role in my server to which he got angry and blocked me, to which I said fuck it and blocked him in return and removed him from my servers because I no longer want to associate with him.

That is a blatant fucking lie, I did care about his mental health. I was there for him a lot and I did my best to show I cared about him.

According to him you didn't care about his mental health

Because I think he's a really toxic person, in regard to how obsessive he was about being one of my closest friends and wanting the bestest bestie role in my server. he refused to let our friendship grow naturally and that pushed me away from him.

How come?

No.

Also, have you started interacting with Cyber again lately?

I'm not trying to argue with you, do not let that be your takeaway from this please, I just want you to keep yourself safe.

(which I'm seriously starting to get annoyed at the fact I can't breathe 3 times in a row without choking)

You interacting with them and being friends with them, that is my problem.

My point is that it's damn near impossible to avoid people that interact with Natalie

You're avoiding the issue December.

Guess what, they interact with Natalie

You allow yourself to be surrounded by people that enable Nat.

It's possible that your follower count is the same way

and I would like to say December, if your follower list really is a majority of people that associate with Nat, I think that reflects on you a little bit and I don't think it's a good thing.

How many people are you aware of that I interact with and they also interact with Natalie?

You are far better off not surrounding yourself with people that enable Nat

My only guess is she's pissed off at me, I mean that's why my birth mom would stop talking to me

Do you know why Stealthy hasn't been talking to you as much?

I'm just saying, because if I get rid of all of my friends that interact with Natalie she's basically all I have left besides 4 other people

I never once mentioned Stealthy

Dude the only time me and Stealthy have talked lately is to say that we love each other, to say goodnight, and yesterday when I offered to be horny together with her, and it fucking hurts

if your friends will ignore you just because you don't want to associate with Nat, then they aren't your friends.

It fucking does when half of my friends ignore me

You need to take a stand and advocate for yourself.

Which is basically 75% of my Twitter followers or more

December, all I am asking you to do is stop associating with people that are friends with Nat.

But living without 75% of my Twitter account followers?

You said yourself you can live without them

Why? Every time I do I get hurt worse and I'm tired of it

You need to take a stand, December

I'm basically choking on air while typing

oh and before I forget, I should mention the countless times they have excused Nat's actions

I probably won't be doing anything for awhile since I'm sick as fuck

until then, I do not think you should be around them.

I'm not making excuses, I'm just giving them the benefit of the doubt

You shouldn't associate yourself with people that are complicit in Nat's crimes. You need to take a firm stance.

Some people just can't afford to be doxed

until they cut ties with Nat, they are still complicit in her crimes.

Yeah I managed to get out, but not in one piece

You managed to get out, why cant they

They have no choice though

That doesn't matter, they shouldn't be supporting her.

To Natalie they don't serve any real meaning, if they tried to go against Natalie like I did the same exact thing would happen to them

That doesn't excuse it. they are still complicit.

Honestly, in regards to Nyan Leaf and Viola I understand why they aren't going against it

that makes them just as guilty for not taking a stand and going against Nat

Oh and my social media accounts

Also note that the only thing this "mclovinis2cool4u" guy got correct is my address

that just makes me think they're working together

I happen to have a screenshot of my dox

uh huh, and if Nat supposedly hates this guy why would she be using the dox they provided?

Mclovin iirc

His online name was pasted at the top of my dox

How did you find who doxxed you

Oh shit, did they remove me from doxbin?

what information

Looking up information basically

and how exactly did you figure it out

I figured it out on my own, and then Natalie confirmed it

and who told you that? Nat?

It was some Ukraine idiot that Natalie absolutely hates

None of them doxed me

There is no excuse

None of them bother me though, they're great friends

You don't owe Nat or any of her goons anything, you can live without them in your life

Honestly though, if I don't want to be friends with anyone who's friends with Natalie... I've got you, Stealthy, my gf, Rylan, and Smudgy left as friends basically

she's just as complicit as anyone else

True

You have a right to privacy, plus what Nat did was illegal.

Natalie said it was to serve as punishment for me

if she really cared she wouldn't associate with Nat

She convinced Natalie not to put my address in her bio

Viola already protected me from Natalie once though

You shouldn't be around anyone even in vicinity to Nat, it isn't safe.

It's because I have a tendency to be mean to Natalie's friends and Natalie herself

and I really do not like the connotation of "if you behave"

Not all people that are associated with Natalie are bad people

my problem is that they're associated with Nat

I had asked her if she wanted to be friends with me

I want to talk to you about this

Actually wait, is it good or bad? I need to prepare myself mentally first

Oki then, if you need anything though just let me know ^w^

Yes I’m sure

You sure?

I can look on my own time

Tbh I can't really buy anything for you, but I can at least help you find a nice pair of earbuds that you could get

You don’t need to buy anything for me

I found a decent pair of Samsung earbuds that are $54 but they mentioned Android 8 which is why I was asking

As long as it has bluetooth it should work

Are just any earbuds compatible with your phone?

Now you sound like my dad anytime I do something bad QwQ

We’ll talk about it after school

Also what do you want to talk about?

Now I'm scared

We need to talk. I’ll see you after school.

Huh?

December, we need to talk later today

Me neither tbh

I'm not sure what to say

This is the last message they ever sent me

what makes you think that?

It's just that I think one of my friends might have committed suicide and I don't know how to react

whats up?

Wanna chat?

Ye

I understand

But like besides from you, Rylan, Smudgaze, and my girlfriend Mint, Stealthy is who's really holding me here y'know? I don't wanna lose her

I will

Please let her know that I'm here for her if she needs me

she's holding up right now, but overall she's not so good

Also is Stealthy doing oki?

Oki cutie

I'm about to take a shower soon so not at the moment

Also can you call?

Dang

not yet

Also did you see the post I sent in my channel?

yeah

https://x.com/Beowulfdacutie/status/1845243102631485948?t=IiH2Il130r-JoTXIRU_W6A&s=19 Also in your opinion did I successfully ratio this guy?

Decemberちゃん, call me Joker arc (@Beowulfdacutie) on X

@StrastonCalhoun What are real marriages?

Twitter • 10/12/2024 19:20:13 EDT

good good

It's why I said nvm lol

have you found your phone yet?

Also can you unblock me on Tweeter?

You're the best uwu

https://discord.gg/D53QYvXH

alright, fine

Also I feel like absolute shit today QwQ

Also I know I asked this before but can I pretty please rejoin your server? I miss having my own channel and stuff

I'm okay

How're you doing cutie?

boop

Everything ok?

eh

How're you doing cutie

We got Cocomellon roasting KSI before we got GTA VI https://youtube.com/shorts/s2a0djboWNQ?si=Yj3hUhtae_J1-r9L

Yeah, here's what he said in his server

???

Mind you my friend is 16

Also I'm only going to be able to do my laptop and government phone currently since my gaming rig isn't booted into Linux currently lol

Sure

Also mind if I try texting you on telegram a couple of times? I wanna see how well it works on both my government phone and my two Linux system environments

I’m home

Also what time do you usually get done with school?

You available to chat cutie?

Luv you

Goodnight

Nini though cutie pie UwU

ouch

Yeah that's what happened to my phone cuz I didn't have a charger for it

yeah

It'll damage the battery

wow, my phone would be laggy asf if it was on 3% 💀

Like look at this lol

yeah

Also ngl my phone works so much faster with battery saver turned off

oh, right 💀

What number percentage is commonly weaponized against trans people?

why?

Also ngl I rlly hate whenever my phone is on 41% battery

Ye

yeah

In other words Ring a ding ding baby you're correct

I have no clue who that is but "adult human female" is sending off major red flags

Also I wonder if I can get blocked by this chick again

Aww

I’d have to think about it

Also can I rejoin your server uwu

Oki :3

Nah I'm alright

Oh, need any help?

I'm a bit caught up in something right now so I can't call

Wanna call so I can stream my desktop to you?

hug

I just want you to know I am severely disappointed in you.

Bye I guess

Goodbye.

Honestly I just really don't care anymore

I'm done with this. If you want to throw yourself into the fire needlessly, fine. Go ahead. If you won't listen to me then I see no point continuing this conversation.

I really love you December, I wouldn't put so much effort into trying to keep you safe if I didn't.

Then I see only one option

I am giving an ultimatum. You either 1. Stop talking to and provoking Nat period, ever again or 2. I will not support you anymore, I will not leave but I swear to god if you have a problem you better not come to me about it.

OwO

flop

I mean it's only a crime if you get caught >;3

that I can understand

I wanna paint the walls with Natalie's head so badly though Qwq

tight hug

Hey at least I hate everyone equally (I have exceptions dw)

killing transphobes doesn't help anyone

.44 magnum? One of the most powerful handguns?

Nope

12gauge

you know how to beat transphobia? live proudly. Be who you are and don't be ashamed of it. Because thats what they hate.

Fine...

Doesn't matter what the case is, transphobia is bad

I mean they're just larping as transgender even though they're probably just a conservative white male

Transphobia against anyone is bad.

Please?

No

Am I allowed to be transphobic to someone who claims to be "gender dysphoric" but then proceeds to bash people that are actually gender dysphoric and call them delusional?

hm?

@🔥𝓐𝓬𝓻𝓮𝔃𝓾𝓵🎸

Same

I just really hope she’s asleep

I already lost my real mom and to lose my unofficial adoptive mom too... I honestly don't even know how to feel if that happens

I don’t know either

If she did actually y'know... then quite honestly I don't know what I'm going to do

I hope so too….

Cuz I know that a lot of people mute their phone when they sleep

Fuck

Yeah it just went to voicemail

no voicemail?

It just rang still

can you call Stealthy again please

And it looked like it normally does when she types

Honestly I'm really scared

fuck

That's all I know

do you know her general area? do you think you could get crisis services involved?

Also I messaged her on telegram but she hasn't responded back or seen it

I don't want to think about that...

Do you think that Stealthy...

It went to voicemail again but I (hopefully) left a voicemail saying to call me back if she's there

don't stop

It went to voicemail again

please

Want me to call her again?

please keep trying

Idk what to do

fuck

Also her phone just rang and then went to voicemail

fuck

No

Do you know Stealthy's address

December please talk to Stealthy she’s being suicidal

https://x.com/MCYT_Highlights/status/1842352911512170731?t=Y6YO9QdDn7-OXuTJenZChg&s=19

MCYT Highlights | FREE PALESTINE!!! 🍉 (@MCYT_Highlights) on X

Stampylongnose is actually Fidget from Dust: An Elysian Tailz

Twitter • 10/04/2024 19:55:38 EDT

Nope

has she said anything-?

Idk...

I don't think she wants me around anymore....

She didn't join

if you.. think it'll work, I guess..

Should I try calling her on discord...?

I want to.... but I just.. I don't know....

She saw my telegram message

but I fucked up...

What did you even do...?

I don't know if Stealthy can forgive me.....

And when Stealthy told me it was a bad idea I got mad at her

...what did you do..-?

I thought she'd never speak to me again after I hurt her, but she still accepted me again

..and that I fucked it all up.....

What do you mean if it's too late?

what if it's too late

To get Stealthy to let you apologize

I can't hurt myself even if I wanted to

I still need you

i don't want to exist

Acre, if not for you I'd be dead

I just make everything worse

Don't say that

i wish that i never existed

I'm sorry that there's not much more I can do

I can't

I'm sorry

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck